Another Otaku Story, Against the Brain to Stop Watching Porn, Unstable Imaginer.

Hello, I'm a resident of the mainlands on Earth. Not too much personal info about myself that I want to describe here, sorry about that. The bold point about my main introduction is I'm an intrinsic dominant personality person type (another type is "extrinsic" if u want to Google it). The meaning is I'm a person that never ask somebody to help me with something in my private area. But since I've found this forum after Googling "hard to stop watching porn" (this is exactly happening after I'm watching inappropriate content yesterday...). I will try to stop but before that. I might want to share some part of my life story here. So everything will be clear, and it will be my first realization step to remind me (in the future) if I'm serious to stop giving up on my weakness.

With "respect to art" yes I love art! such us graphic illustration, color combination, and any other art that human has been made in this era. I'am enjoy watching anime, u can call me Otaku, its ok (but I don't read any updated manga, I have some very old comic manga from my childhood since it's not cheap and I need to have more extra time to read). No one week leave without watching anime. Most anime that I wanted to watch is "slice of life" or "action" genres, or mainly dependent on a good story (with touch feeling would be great), for example, Noragami, Naruto, Bleach, Natsume Yuujinchou, 3-gats no lion, Boku no Hero Academia, Detective Conan, Violet Evergarden, some anime from CoMix Wave studio, some from Studio Ghibli, and many more...(please help my hand to stop typing it).

So let's go straight to what problem I am facing now. I spend my time in front of my PC from hours to hours just sit and learn something for my soft skill improvement to having a professional work based on my hobbies. By now, it just likes the beginning of my life to start it. The only one problem that giving me a stuck in some progress is because I'm started watching inappropriate content on the internet (I never save it in my local storage for the long period). This happens sometimes (not every time, but most commonly) caused by boredom and after that, I started googling some newest weekly anime. The sad thing about anime in this new era is most creator anime designed their content to attract more people fall by adding the additive effect of their product, especially for a male like me. In the production of anime contained some content such as graphics design, background sound effect - music, actor's voice, and story plot. That sometimes disturbing me for example when they design a female character with a half-nude and detailed body shape, or adding weird ambiguity sound effect, most commonly female actor voice that reading a dirty word by giving more attractive sexiness expression, or by story plot that designed to make an inappropriate joke. So sad this happens on a non-adult anime (sometimes I'm grumbling "why adult means nude/inappropriate things") by now, in fact, some anime studio gave an extra service (we call it f-a-p-n service) by release one or more extra content or eps. with a dirty joke inside it.

To be honest, the hype of watching adult content significant giving a bad effect on me. I want to stop but how if in other time I wanted to watch a new eps anime and one of their content might attract me to watch more content that I should not watch. In another side, I do believe if this is wrong. I don't know how this feels to explain. Just like any other most common adult people say "any film that exists is just a show"... basically, I know about that (anyway I'm between 20-24 years old & have no plan yet to married). But still, I've tried with my self some month ago to stop do these wrong things, it works for a while and happens again, maybe like looping code, No! I don't want to trapped with this loop forever.

I might update my status inside by commenting this once a week about my progress. I will appreciate if anyone wants to share or giving some advice to me. Also sorry if what I write here may be too aggressive for you and thank you very much for letting me in.

 

Hello @NamoBuddha,

Thanks to you were spending your time reading my inappropriate daily life story. One Piece is my childhood favourite anime when its released on local TV channel, but because of vulgar character design and plot, a censorship company in my country decided to block it, Naruto still popular on TV now since it contained more "action" story and less adult material content(so it easy to cut/censored by company). But no one censorship company will work effectively on the Internet since we get the content directly from the studio.

Slightly get the feels of having needs to watch the newest anime. I regularly checking MAL website at the time of the season when new release anime will come. Honestly, filter content features on that official website don't help me much to choose where is anime with non-adult material content and where is anime with adult content (by now it mixed like a juice).

About your recommended link, I've read and watched them, It's interesting, I got some new information here. One of them is...

Based on someone opinion "we don't fight against pornography", it simply and giving a mindset to thinking if pornography is not an enemy that we should face to it, its a trap, stop focus on them, leave and move into the exact daily life we want to do. Second is "think about others", its remind me to focus on what plan I want to do since I re-think that someday I want to help some people out there with my goal and with the positive mindset I'm able to do it (because I must). Third, "transmute sexual energy to your productive activities, but be ease", a very nice method to implement.

I love to learn about science, a scientific explanation giving me a deep principle, for example, to avoid something dangerous or giving bad effect to our body. Because of science, I don't smoke, drunk, or doing s*x with another girl except for my future wife (after I married of course). Sorry, maybe it's too rude for some reader but since I was a child I have a strong principle to not do something. "DOPAMINE" is a new things I never heard before, interesting about the illustration of dopamine as neurotransmitter in my brain, how it will be increased when a new things (like an adult content) introduced to me and dopamine started to improve (more interest to that things will improve too) after done with one thing my dopamine will be decreased and so I want to watch another adult content more and more (because of dopamine decreased more and more after a hype we get from it and make us easy to get bored), ended to addicted.

it gives more specific information to understand how I'm doing my life right now which one is not right, what should I do to climb the right path for better quality in my life.

Thanks again it was amazing to learn more and more new things that are offered by someone, glad to find this forum, I got some motivation to keep step forward. I giving some review from your link list to easily remind me later and maybe help someone out there to understand it. Some point I got and might able to do it later and some point I just need to convert it and re-translate it based on my principles. Wish you luck! @NamoBuddha.

Best Regard, @respecttoArt.​