Another try

22 year old male abstaining from Porn and masturbation. Been using porn since i was 12 at least. High speed internet fuckeries. Porn has probably changed my brain for the worse. I objectify women to their hips and bodies instead of their individual qualities. This immature outlook has meant that I have never had a girlfriend or sex (some PIED attempts). I have decided to quit porn for many reasons but they all seem to stem from one set: self-discipline. I want to live a productive and humble life with reciprocated loving relationships; especially the romantic. It's the only thing i think i need to 'tick off' so to speak, before i become a man. - probably an immature outlook but perhaps in maturing through NoFap an developing self-discipline i can change my ambitions too. I want to be a man that can bare heavy responsibility, is strong both physically and mentally - someone people turn to during a crisis. I'd love to spend the majority of my time doing intellectual, creative, beautiful and healthy things as opposed to my normal fatigued vegetable manuevering between one instant cheap gratification entertainment stimulant to the next. Gym, Martial arts, Cooking, cycling, swimming, dating, cultural outings, drawing, piano, guitar, even public speaking and workshops. I want to expand my comfort zone to infinity.

I have a feeling that nofap is the answer to my social anxiety, depression, Fomo and just general failure to fulfil my potential from moment to moment, especially lack of faith in myself and my abilities. I have periods of great confidence where i see the light. I want these periods of peaceful competence to be the norm not the spots in the rag.

Because I am a virgin and would like to leave the prospect of having sex this summer with a women an open possibility that doesnt clash with my goals i have chosen normal mode: abstinence from porn and masturbation. This includes even Instagram fitness models etc. as well as the vanilla and further porn sites. My aim is the golden standard 90 days. It becomes day 1 at 12pm today. Let's do this.

p.s also looking for an accountability partner(s) male or female, as long as honesty is the policy

Peace and love my brothers and sisters.

 

Hi mate thanks for the words of encouragement. I'm down for an accountability partner. I sadly relapsed today. Need to work out how to properly use this forum. PM me