@Legit1 I relate completely. Often, I have no interest in actually ruining my streak, getting myself sexually aroused or O'ing. Oftentimes, as you said, it simply is watching something that brings excitement. It's so frustrating. The fact is, porn and sex are the most exciting thing to our primitive brains because to our brains - it associates porn with procreation - which is the highest priority of the gene. So, in many ways, though we are made to feel disgusting and shameful because porn is so messed up - that's not how our brain sees it - so it makes it an incredibly difficult fight. But it isn't something we should have to feel shameful about - simply admit that this is fucking difficult to beat and then continue to give it our all because this isn't who we want to be. Keep fighting man. I'm glad for how honest you are. I appreciate that about this group. Today, I had a couple urges and even went to a favorite social media site where I can typically find some trouble - but got out quickly and didn't cross a line. It still frustrates me how easily I want to go there though. I was bogged down in work and feeling really restless in my legs and upper thighs - just pent up energy I guess. On to tomorrow.