Any Age Accountability Group

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by Halibut, Apr 15, 2019.

  1. pourover24

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    Keeping it rolling - yesterday was a solid day. Feeling the urges a bit today, but per usual - it would take a ton of effort and a ton of wasted time to access porn - so I'm just going to stay focused on work. Struggling a bit today to stay motivated, but it's not as bad as it is some days.
     
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  2. Legit1

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    Day 4. The need to watch porn and just the urges are driving me nuts, I'm resisting as much as possible because I feel like I have much more understanding of this habit now more than ever. So, I'm here to say that I will not watch porn or relapse on this current day, I will go onto tomorrow.
     
  3. Legit1

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    Checking in on Day 7. Just today I've been feeling the additional withdrawals kicking instead of your usual urges. Today I've been feeling just irritated, somewhat down and can't find enjoyment in anything. I'm in that stage where I'm doubting NoFap again, but I know this thing is true and effective, I've already experienced the benefits of it, it's just that my current state of mind is somewhat negative.

    It's 12:16AM right now, and I just don't feel like myself. In the morning I'm going to take a cold shower in hopes that it can boost my mood up a bit. I haven't felt any urges the whole day today as I just honestly don't feel like myself. But despite all this setback, I will definitely keep on going forward.
     
  4. Legit1

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    Day 10. Today at night I couldn't sleep at all, I just felt awake with no tiredness around 2AM. I knew that if I relapsed, I would've immediately go to sleep, but I decided to just ride it out until I go to sleep normally.

    Some stress has gathered upon me throughout the day but I will no relapse today at all, a relapse will not make me feel better and it would eventually be followed by regret and all other negative symptoms that come by with it. The benefits are arriving slowly and slowly while there's no withdrawals as of now. Keep on staying strong, guys! This addiction can definitely be beaten!
     
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  5. smv94

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    Just checking in! Still clean off the porn, but man has it been nearly impossible to keep my eye off girls and women in real life lately. Its a constant battle trying to transmutate my sexual energy into useful thing that push me as a person foward. Currently a 129 days clean off the drugs and alcohol too so im on cloud 9 atm. Life is amazing. I know we must take this thing one day at a time like any addiction in our recovery. stay strong you beautiful people, you are all amazing.
     
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  6. Legit1

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    Serious post here. So I've been having a bunch of stress lately to the point I noticed it was manifesting as strong urges to relapse and anger, anger because a part of me really wants to numb my problems. This type of stuff felt scary as hell to me, because I know I have a lot of anger suppressed inside of me... Something deep inside of me is really just angry. So guess what I did? You guys heard of the wim hof method, right? If you haven't, search that up and do it. That man is really onto something with this stuff. Long story short, that actually healed my root canal that kept bleeding and was accompanied by pain, took me a month to finally feel my tooth getting sealed while the pain and the bleeding is 100% gone! Anyways... I've been doing the wim hof method for about 5 weeks nonstop, so I'm aware of how powerful this thing is. But! This day I finally decided to wind down... and yup, idk how, but I felt like I finally and somehow detected that I have suppressed anger that is messing me up, and it's clearly showing as I'm currently trying to beat the hell out of this addiction. So, I turned off the TV, lights are off, I have silence in the room and I'm just with myself. Man... I always did this method with the TV turned on, but it was always on mute (The TV lights would usually bother me sometimes as I close my eyes and do this method, so me turning it off just made me way much comfortable as I'm just seeing pure black, which gave me another level of being more calm and present at the moment) Now guess what happened next? The vibrations that you usually get from doing this method were stronger than ever and felt like they were going deeper... like I was actually getting the bad stuff inside of me out... not going to lie, but I ended up crying after my 3rd round of this... I've realized that I've been suppressing so much stuff within me that I now knew was doing harm to me. I gotta seriously start treating myself so much better... and 1st thing first, I'm going to do that by 100% getting rid of this addiction.

    Going to go a bit further... I've downloaded a porn video 2 days ago, and I've been watching it when the stress is coming up. So guess what I do? I'm just watching the video and enjoying, I'm not edging or anything like that, only watching and feeling a bit better for sure. Now guess what that is? Suppression. I'm watching porn in order to suppress my stress, problems and anger instead of doing something about it. And that's what I feel the wim hof method has done this time.

    You guys know that I always try to be as honest as I can be, because this addiction does wreak havoc on your body, I just know it too well. So me sharing this information and experience to you guys is because I feel nobody should suffer from this crap addiction.
     
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  7. Halibut

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    Day 16:

    Hey guys, things are going well - after a near slip up a few days ago I have added even more websites to the blocked list. Even more passwords have been set and I have hung a quote up by the head of my bed.

    I relapse in my bed I would say 95% of the time so when I am about to go down the rabbit hole this is what I read:

    "If you quit now you'll end up right back where you FIRST BEGAN. When you first began you were desperate to be where you are right now! KEEP GOING!"

    Underneath I have written the date I will be 90 days PM free as a constant reminder of how close I am to achieving a goal so important to me and how, by relapsing this date will get further...and further away.

    Stay strong guys - seeing some deep work going on here
     
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  8. Legit1

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    Day 13. Man... this is the roughest NoFap streak that I'm enduring. I won't relapse, but man... these withdrawals and the stress are kicking me down. Going to stick on finishing this very day.
     
  9. pourover24

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    Still alive guys. I did have a relapse last week - but am doing solidly over this past week. Quite sick right now so don’t have energy to post much, but am keeping y’all in my thoughts and prayers.
     
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  10. Legit1

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    Hope you recover as quickly as possible and get better.

    Day 15. This healing process is very weird, I swear. The last 4 days felt so long and tough to get through, the mood swings were really getting to me. And not to mention the anger I would feel when I would keep fighting my thoughts of watching porn and relapsing.

    Today when I was sleeping, right in the morning I had a dream where I was watching porn and I was there enjoying it and was waiting for it to get better and better. All this is how I know that my brain is still fighting, and even know this withdrawal occured, I didn't felt any urges or anything to watch porn or even relapse.

    Today I'm definitely feeling better in terms of my mood and overall self, so I'm focusing on getting this day done and move towards another. Definitely feel stronger and more determined to make this NoFap thing a lifestyle. I've been getting some thoughts that once I go 90 or 120 days that I should relapse if things ever get tough as hell, but I've also been telling myself to make it a lifestyle for the rest of my life and just save that energy for a woman. I just feel like I've done myself too much harm to the point that it's awakened me, and I also know that a relapse later along the line will last no more than 10 seconds and won't even be worth it, it never is worth it.
     
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  11. aniseprakash

    aniseprakash Fapstronaut

    Hello Brother,
    I have read your rules and I love to be a part of this group. I am just starting my journey of Nofap after few failed reboots. Could you please add me into the group?

    I have read the rules and would like to become an AP
     
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  12. pourover24

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    I relapsed today, and am frustrated at the circumstances that surrounded it, but know I could've been better. I wasn't even something I really wanted to do, I just kind of fell into it and sort of kept going and then it happened. But, I've been clean 21 of the past 25 days. I've been keeping stats lately to track my progress and its been helping the feelings of positivity that I am making progress. I just need to strive to see those stats improve as well.
     
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  13. xxmemel0verxx

    xxmemel0verxx Fapstronaut

    I’ve read the rules, and I’d like to be an AP. I am 15 and 12 months old.
     
  14. Legit1

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    Day 17. I gotta make this streak the most impactful out of all previous streaks I ever had. This streak has been the toughest one to maintain, it's like my brain is using all its arsenal to knock me down and submit to a relapse.

    Just today I woke up with 3 new pimples that have come up which reminds me of a previous streak where I had acne popping up around the 14 day mark. This type of popups are annoying and they're definitely coming from NoFap as withdrawals, because I for sure experience these mood swings that are crazy to the point I feel mentally drained. But guess what? This gives me more reason to keep on going because if I relapse I'll be back on day 1 with the chaser effect lingering, restarting the process and going through all these withdrawals again. Will keep on enduring!

    @pourover24 Stay strong, man. Remember that this addiction can get you even when you're not craving any of that.
     
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  15. aniseprakash

    aniseprakash Fapstronaut

    So positive bro. Good to read the journal of confident rebooters
     
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  16. pourover24

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    @Legit1 Awesome to hear that you are continuing strong on this current streak, and your greater recovery overall!

    I'm good today - and I was on the road again yesterday and didn't get into trouble like the last two times I was in this spot - so that is good news!
     
  17. iamunstoppable

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    Doing my second nofap, (the first one was weird, i replased on 60th day),
    now i'm stronger on day of 10th!
    i need soul support,
    hope i could get this shit out of the system
     
  18. Legit1

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    Day 20. Like I've previously said, this streak has been one of the weirdest and most unstable streak I've had, it's like the progress goes up, keeps steady and then goes down exponentially. I'm still going to keep going because I don't want to deal with another streak like this one.

    I know that most of my mood swings and withdrawals are from Nofap, because just today I've had another dream of watching porn. It's already been 4 times already on this streak that I've dreamed about porn. I'm not even watching porn, but for some reason my brain is craving that. Will keep on going strong! I feel very determined to make this streak higher than 60 days like my highest streak of all time. Best of luck, guys! Kick this trash addiction to the side.
     
  19. pourover24

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    @Legit1 That's crazy about the dreams though I myself have had dreams as well. Good to hear you're still going strong, brother. Keep it up!

    I am home alone right now and am for the next 12 hours or so into tomorrow. Being home alone is one of my biggest weaknesses!! Everything is locked down as it should be, but there is still a chance I make some dumb move with youtube or something. I am coming here now telling ya'll that I won't be giving in tonight. No way.
     
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  20. Legit1

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    At least you're aware that being alone is your biggest weakness, so you should be keen whenever urges or any withdrawals hit you. Keep your guard up. And if you find yourself caving in or anything, stop and think thoroughly whether it will be worth it or not. You're always in control, even when you feel like you're caving in -- know that you're in control of your next decision.
     

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