Checking in. Urges are starting to kick in - I just opened up a familiar site and then quickly escaped before going anywhere. It just seems that if I don't keep track of every thought in my brain, my thoughts are suddenly becoming sexual in nature. This always seems to happen after 4-7 days of going strong. The eventual pattern finds me breaking down under the exhausting cycle of trying to break my brain away from these thoughts. I also have found myself feeling pretty low about other things in my life over these past two days. I don't know for certain, but based on what I've read about withdrawal, the feeling of being generally sad/depressed is something others have had to cope with. It's like, these are things that I normally might get a little bummed about - but just haven't been able to shake in the same way this weekend. As the cycle goes, when I feel low - I tend to try to find something to cheer me up. When I try to find things to cheer me up, sometimes I crack open a beer. Or, sometimes, I'll just decide to try and find some P and E a bit. I need to battle through these feelings of lowness. I'm also pretty tired today after staying up a bit too late last night - so I'm moving a bit slow. My plan is to go to bed at a better time tonight. @Halibut: Boredom and lack of motivation is also something I face during this time - so I think I am similar to where you are right now. I love the idea of a bike ride. Good work on going that route. @RTBFOP: Thanks for the encouragement my man, yeah - it always seems like a fun idea to go too far in the moment - but I regret it the next morning. The next morning can often be the worst time for me to be triggered because I feel so out of it.