I had another anxiety attack today and I think I took a decision. I cried for some time and I think this torture got all from me. I cried a lot in the last 6 months because I just can't take it any longer. I will try to go for 100 days, hard mode till the end of December. If I can't I'll just end my life. I live in a constant torture for the last 6 months and I'm close to the end of my powers. I'm confused about my sexuality because of what I feel in this moment and because of what types of porn I have watched. I just can't accept this person that I have become in only 1 year. From someone who would be disgusted by a man's face in porn to actually masturbate to gay, trans, gore, animal and other types of f****d up porn is too much for me to accept at this point. If NoFap doesn't work, I'm done with all. I can't take it for my longer. My head feels like it will explode.