Any cure for gayness?

I wasn't gay ever before. After watching a lot a lot of gay porn, I arrived until a situation I liked to be involved in the action of fucking a man or being fucked by a man instead of only watching.
After that and I think it was my fault, I listned to gay hypnosis on the YouTube! These videos destroyed my subconscious mind!
All these stuffs are bad men. Internet is full of bad things!
I regret a lot because all my sexual thoughts became now about sucking dicks and being fucked

 

What kind of therapy did you get?

 

I thought I must be gay because I watched transwoman saw gay stuff and personally it just made me laugh . No arousal at all. Yea it's gross seeing some shit but I find it funny more than anything 2 dudes at it. No offense to any gay dudes it just made it clear I'm not gay

I think the fact I don't care if anyone is gay straight or bi. Live and let live as long as people know the boundaries that I am straight . But that never really happens. Any gay shit I've ever seen which was only a few minutes or glimpse of something on a porn site just makes me laugh. And before I was thinking I have to be gay as fuck for watching transwoman . I tested myself to know for sure and I can say for sure I am not gay. But I can get off to chicks with dicks but that's a complete other story on it's own. An optical illusion that creates fantasy. Science says most who view that genre are straight males If it's good enough for science it's good enough for me

 

Yep, you're right! They're disgusting

 

So your situation is that you fantasize about sucking dick and getting fucked, feel regret after you climax and feel like you're disgusted.

This is porn-induced. A lot of porn needs to be consumed to reach this point because over time it kinda convinces your brain that "dick gives you pleasure" "this dick looks yummy" "i would like to give oral to this dick" etc and in all honesty, porn actually tries to front this idea towards the viewer because what's the focus on whenever you watch porn? (unless a person were to consume lesbian pornography) Watching two genitals slamming into each other. And all you're hearing are moans and expressions about how the "dick" is so good. Over time it conditions you but you would have had to consume A LOT of pornography to reach this point.

Good news is that not watching porn actually throws this fantasy/thought outside the window.

It's not called "gayness" by the way, the way you worded the thread would be pretty offensive towards gay members in this community, what you're describing is a cock-worship fetish.

 

Man! This is typically my case. I arrived into a time when I was watching gay porn for 2 hous and more daily!
Even though, i spent 3 weeks without PMOing, all the shit thoughts in my head are about being fucked and sucking dicks. And I don't know why. I really don't feel good with those things. Even after 3 weeks of stopping watching porn, all the scenes are in my head. Now i'm imagining myself more and more aroused and interested to try a fuck or suck a dick in the reality ...

 

Maybe the problem is in thinking in sex itself.
Porn basically removes the side of love in having sex with a person. In porn, sex means pleasure and that's it!
The more i watched gay porn the more I was attracted to male sex and not to the male as a person (kind of just being attracted to male sex). My objective was to get the maximum arousing and pleasure by watching the most pleasure think in the point view of my mind : gay porn, after eventually spending 10 years in watching this gay porn shit

 

No why?

 

After I've started PMO challenge in this website

 

Voilà

 

And then, what will happen??