A bit ironic (perhaps) to say being that I'm on NoFap (please don't take that as an insult, I respect you all for coming forward to better yourselves).... I've made some big strides in personal development... it all kicked off with attending Landmark Forum back in December 2014.... it turned out to be one of the best things I've ever done... But.... since then... I've noticed that my consciousness...awareness...and all those wonderful words has taken off.... meanwhile the misses is.....well.... she's.... there. No 'gusto' to do epic sh*t.... no natural inclination or drive to create a higher self... nothing... and ummm.... it's pretty lonely. I don't have a desire to hand-hold.... it's something where all I can do is put a few nuggets here and there... but...as the adage says... you can show the horse the lake..but it has to drink the water itself... But anyhow... holy crap is it lonely on an emotional level... It feels like that I'm on a different plane all together... speak a different language... I can't tell you how often I feel despair when I get "deep".... existential... perhaps nihilistic to a degree.... and the response is the equivalent of the RCA puppy dog tilting its head. And I just do a facepalm (pick whatever GIF... the Jean Luc Picard one...the Ryan Gosling one... the Dos Equis guy... they all work) Lot is a different Lot than what he was in 2014... Mrs. Lot is....whelp. I think you southern NoFap members would say "bless her heart", right? Maybe XXX has made me feel at least *something* to fill the void. Any other fellow lonely men who are lonely despite taking their vows and sought XXX as a mistress?