Any Help Appreciated

[blahblahblah100]

Hey All,

I've been a lurker here for many years. I've never been able to beat this habit and unfortunately I keep thinking I'll never be able to either. I have made progress but also made sure to undue said progress. I am not sure what there is left to do other than give up.

My urges come in weird packages. I don't sleep really well and almost always end up waking up late at night. I think I also suffer from the NSFW version of insomnia where you wake up doing some questionable things. All that coupled together I end up having the most extreme urges in the middle of the night almost as if I'm sleepwalking. I don't know how to get rid of that issue. It's been the reason so many of my attempts have failed. I will be asleep, no problem, and then wake up, to*ch*ng, doing the nasty, and then it'll be too late. I haven't gone to a doctor about this but I think I need to.

My question here is does anyone else have any experience with this? Does anyone else have experience with "s**somnia" and waking up late at night with urges? And if so, what measures have you taken to help with this and help with the porn problem?


I'm seriously considering just not sleeping ever again because it weakens my rational thinking entirely.


Please I want this disease to leave me once and for all.

 

[MikeSilva]

Hey All,

I've been a lurker here for many years. I've never been able to beat this habit and unfortunately I keep thinking I'll never be able to either. I have made progress but also made sure to undue said progress. I am not sure what there is left to do other than give up.

My urges come in weird packages. I don't sleep really well and almost always end up waking up late at night. I think I also suffer from the NSFW version of insomnia where you wake up doing some questionable things. All that coupled together I end up having the most extreme urges in the middle of the night almost as if I'm sleepwalking. I don't know how to get rid of that issue. It's been the reason so many of my attempts have failed. I will be asleep, no problem, and then wake up, to*ch*ng, doing the nasty, and then it'll be too late. I haven't gone to a doctor about this but I think I need to.

My question here is does anyone else have any experience with this? Does anyone else have experience with "s**somnia" and waking up late at night with urges? And if so, what measures have you taken to help with this and help with the porn problem?


I'm seriously considering just not sleeping ever again because it weakens my rational thinking entirely.


Please I want this disease to leave me once and for all.

You have installed some bad software in your brain, but luckily this bad software is completely reversible. Yes you can do it, and please do not say to yourself that you are unable to get through this. Because you CAN get through this. Try to weaken the pathways of porn in your brain and try strengthening other pathways which can turn into productive tasks, like work, fitness or reading books (I do these 3 things a lot lately).

Try to get through this for 1 or 2 weeks and go from there. You will feel some very very bad urges, but that is normal, because your brain wants that dopamine rush back.

About sleep --> What helped me? I wake up before 6 AM, because that way I get really tired around 9-10 PM and my sleep is much deeper and better. Try to make a sleeping schedule for yourself where you promise yourself to wake up at the right time. This is essential for good health. Your body loves a routine, especially your sleeping system.

Hope this helps

 

[cleaningupmyact]

Welcome to posting!

I've been a lurker here for many years

"our addiction cannot be solved in the same isolation that supported it"

My shame and fear kept me in isolation as a sex addict for many years. I couldn't breathe a word of it to another soul, and surely thought my life would be over if I did.

Today I talk about my sex addiction all the time in recovery programs. It absolutely contributes to my sobriety to not be hiding in the double life.

does anyone else have any experience with this? Does anyone else have experience with "s**somnia" and waking up late at night with urges?

I would say this is a pretty common experience here. Many great posts about this. It is something I struggle with as well, because how can I control myself when I'm not fully conscious? It's a way in which the disease of my addiction works to destroy me.
The way I beat it is by making recovery a huge part of my life everyday, and *especially* when I'm super tired. I have forced myself to go to SAA meetings when I could barely speak or keep eyes open and barely knew what was happening. Why? Because I need to re-write the harddrve of my brain in those moments. I need to equate "super tired" to "sober"

in addition, common suggestions are:
- wearing pants always to bed. Even with a belt, if needed.
- keep all electronics locked in another room before going to sleep
- keeping phone / electronics in car

keep posting here - this got MUCH better for me when I stopped lurking and started engaging in my recovery