Firstly, sighhhhhh this seems to be very very male-heavy. I'm wondering if there are any other females in this part, cos it'd be nice to share YOUR experiences?? Or am I literally the only female on NoFap who is NOT in a relationship and IS looking? Also, I'm making myself choose the REAL thing over PM. I have struggled SO much with this stupid addiction. But you know I can't kiss myself not really! I can't cuddle myself to sleep. I can't surprise myself with new jokes - even though I CAN make myself laugh! I want to stick to REAL interactions even though part of me is scared of intimacy at all and like oh but I can give you great orgasms! Yeah but at SUCH a high price! And I need to find that I need to want the real more than the fake, you know? it's so convenient cos it's RIGHT THERE. And meeting people for real takes time. With no guarantee of the physical being the same as on my own. But I can get things from REAL PEOPLE that I can never EVER EVER EVER get from masturbation and porn/porn subs. I just need to remember that and believe that enough to WAIT. I'm allowing myself sex if it happens. But I'm NOT allowing myself any more sex with MYSELF cos it's not really even sex, it's just a poor substitution. And it's never satisfied. And it can't meet those DEEPER needs, even if at times it pretends to. And it is FUCKING ME UP. ENOUGH. This HAS to STOP. NOW.