Anyone else feel angry?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Keeptrying1432, Jan 18, 2019.

  1. Keeptrying1432

    Keeptrying1432 Fapstronaut

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    So it felt like I've abstained from PMO for a while till i looked at my calendar and saw that it's only been four days...the whole day today since I woke up I've been so short tempered and I feel physically hot, like it's hard to focus on some things, and I get a few thoughts thinking maybe I'll relapse today, but I felt strong against it. In fact it was very strong, "No. I don't need to. I'm not going to. " But then I got angrier like I can't just satisfy my desire now whenever I feel like it? I've done that for so many years and to not allow myself to do that anymore? Like I CAN'T do it? And I guess I tricked myself into relapsing. I was feeling so hot tempered I thought maybe a shower would help but when I saw myself undressing well...it was the most nude I've seen in a while I guess. I don't usually look when I undress or anything I know that's weird but I just don't consciously look.

    So I relapsed and I'm thinking now like is this even possible? I know I should stop, I want to stop, but are these benefits that these successful youtubers talk about feeling after abstaining and quitting even achievable for me?I think it could be and these thoughts are coming because it's just a very frustrating and angry day, I finally relapsed and I guess maybe I want to quit so I can keep doing what I've been doing before. But some of the questions I'm thinking are am I focusing too much on not doing PMO? Like am I putting too much attention on all this by listening to other people's journeys, their tips, the benefits, counting my days, watching myself so I don't give in? Am I making it bigger than it is. I don't think so but you know that saying, 'sometimes if you give something too much attention it get's bigger?

    I don't know fapstronauts has anyone else felt this way? I want to give up, but when I thin about my relationship and how it effects everything in a weird negative way, how it effects me like anxiety and what not I definitely want to stop. Does this journey make anyone else angry sometimes?
     
  2. Retentionman

    Retentionman Fapstronaut

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    Oh yeah man, in this specific streak I haeven't had any anger issues but in precious ones long ago, I had a really really strong anger, I think I wrote an status about it let me see:

    "Retentionman I don't know what the fuck is happening but, since yesterday I have been feeling very strange...
    I have been having waves of hornyness, which I can totally control because I can. But above else, I have this fucking anger and Impotence, my body is filled with rage.. my hands shake of anger for no logical reason, or for the most trivial thoughts or things. I feel the need to fire this energy into something or someone, but I don't know what the fuck is causing this shit"
    Oct 27, 2017

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    at that time I was at NoPMO Day 26. NoFap Day 92. So as you can see it can ve very normal, but do not worry about it, your only worry should be to STAY FOCUSED AND STRONG
     
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  3. Jsthetic

    Jsthetic Fapstronaut

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    Short tempered is due to pmo eating all ur dopamine. And yes u can get the benefits I get them all the time. And I always lose em. I remember being sayian and going on tinder and bam! It went away and the bad shit came back. 3 days ago I fantasized bout an erotic dream i had and before that I was really enjoying the "benefits" and after fantasizing bam! Benefits went away and I still feel the one way wer all familiar with...like shit after a relapse. So yea now I know that no social media I only watch youtube vids once every 2 weeks or so and yea y'all know the rest.
     
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  4. Jsthetic

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    But yea dude pmo makes us feel very angry. I remember the first time i went sayian and thinking to myself 'I LOVE PEOPLE" after being a nervous anxious wreck my whole life. After my first 2 or 3 experiences of full benefits I promised myself to never relapse or even have sex cuz honestly being alive is better than anything is the world. Sayian is better than sex drugs or anything out there for me. I love NoFap. Wish I would've known sooner.
     
  5. Keeptrying1432

    Keeptrying1432 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks guys I appreciate all the responses. Its good to know it's just part of the process hopefully I can look out fornit in the future and better prepare.
     
  6. Jsthetic

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    Yea man. Thats what I'm doing. I've been learning slowly about what I should do and what to avoid. I currently quit pm on dec14 and I'm doing a 90 day reboot. I got tired of relapsing even tho I know the consecuenses so I defo quit pm for good. I've been trying since I was 16 but at 24 I learned about how bad it is on the brain and I've been putting my soul into quitting and here i am a year later finally got pushed to the edge with this abomination. 90 days or nothing.
     
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    That's awesome!
     

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