Anyone else struggle to vibe with cam sites ?

I struggle to vibe with paying for porn.

 

Through my porn addiction, I did eventually make way to the cam sites. After every session I did on the cam sites, I would think, "what I am doing paying for this stuff when there is so much out there for free." Looking back I think the reason I went to cam sites was for interactions that were always different. It fulfilled the craving for social interaction. In my rational mind, I knew they were stringing me along because I would pay for exclusive time with them. In my porn addicted mind, I believed the girl in Ireland really liked me and was considering moving to the USA so we could live together and have lots of sex. I am thankful that the credit card i used on those sites only had a limit of $300 so it kept me in check a few times that I had maxed out the card. It helped me keep the spending somewhat under control and avoid going into large debt.

I am glad that it's now 41 days without porn and even more since the last time I did a cam session. I don't miss the cam sessions at all and really like that the money is still in my bank account.

 

Good for you. Although btw most of what you say applies to porn, sometimes more so. Girls might look bored of the loser guys they have to talk to, but one of the attractions of this kind of thing for me was the perceived morality of it - the girl is at home, not putting herself at risk and working for herself, choosing what she is comfortable doing etc.
Of course this isnt the reality for some (most?) Cam girls. But this was my delusion.