Recently my sex drive is lower so I can go a couple days and I don't feel the urge to PMO which is nice at first.
But after 24 hours I start getting really angry at small stuff. I'm pretty sure I broke my knuckle bone a couple days ago punching a wall.
And after the anger I just feel frustrated and horrible and hate my life.
I try to keep it down so I don't bother my cats but I just become a ball of anger sometimes. Not at people but just at things at home that bother me. If a drawer won't open I'll rip the handle off. And I almost ripped my front door off the hinge (huge steel door) so now it doesn't close properly.
I just get this feeling that hate the universe.
And this is not like me at all. People often comment on how chill I am. And I used to be a very happy person. I'm very talented and have a business that makes huge money if I could actually get up and do it.
So recently I've been doing PMO just like a drug addict. I have no horniness most days but I know if I don't do it then I'll feel like shit. And I don't even enjoy it like I did in the past. I just try to finish as fast as possible - and it takes ages because I'm not enjoying it.
I've got back/neck problems which keeps me in bed a lot and causes huge financial problems. I've been broke for like 6 years, with the last 4 years barely able to pay for food, and huge debt on top. And my friends and family are far away.
So my life is just going pretty crap right now. So I'm not exactly getting angry at nothing. I'm really frustrated with my life and PMO calms me down and makes the rest of the day bearable.
I want to quit but I can't deal with all this emotional crap. And I don't feel like there's an end to the tunnel because I've been in shit for so long. I know exactly what to do and my body won't let me. What a fucking dumb situation to be in.
Any advice? Has anyone got past stuff like this? How long did it take and what did you do?
(Please don't suggest drugs or meds. Not an option.)
Thanks!
But after 24 hours I start getting really angry at small stuff. I'm pretty sure I broke my knuckle bone a couple days ago punching a wall.
And after the anger I just feel frustrated and horrible and hate my life.
I try to keep it down so I don't bother my cats but I just become a ball of anger sometimes. Not at people but just at things at home that bother me. If a drawer won't open I'll rip the handle off. And I almost ripped my front door off the hinge (huge steel door) so now it doesn't close properly.
I just get this feeling that hate the universe.
And this is not like me at all. People often comment on how chill I am. And I used to be a very happy person. I'm very talented and have a business that makes huge money if I could actually get up and do it.
So recently I've been doing PMO just like a drug addict. I have no horniness most days but I know if I don't do it then I'll feel like shit. And I don't even enjoy it like I did in the past. I just try to finish as fast as possible - and it takes ages because I'm not enjoying it.
I've got back/neck problems which keeps me in bed a lot and causes huge financial problems. I've been broke for like 6 years, with the last 4 years barely able to pay for food, and huge debt on top. And my friends and family are far away.
So my life is just going pretty crap right now. So I'm not exactly getting angry at nothing. I'm really frustrated with my life and PMO calms me down and makes the rest of the day bearable.
I want to quit but I can't deal with all this emotional crap. And I don't feel like there's an end to the tunnel because I've been in shit for so long. I know exactly what to do and my body won't let me. What a fucking dumb situation to be in.
Any advice? Has anyone got past stuff like this? How long did it take and what did you do?
(Please don't suggest drugs or meds. Not an option.)
Thanks!