Anyone on a good streak listen up..

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Fallensoldier1, Sep 15, 2019.

  1. Fallensoldier1

    Fallensoldier1 Fapstronaut

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    If you have been on a decent streak, or beat your 90 day streak and wonder if you have made progress or if you still are. I urge you, don’t relapse, don’t fall back in the hole.

    I started nofap more serious last October and went all the way to April with no PMO. I got weak and M’d after going to the beach and urges hit strong. Then that gradually led me back into Facebook and M’ing there, then it led back to searching for what I used to, before I knew it I was back at it. So easy, and couldn’t go a week without again. So all summer long I was trapped again.

    I now am having the crazy withdrawals and side effects I used to have again. Very scary stuff. Bad thoughts. Depression, anxiety, unable to handle stress and all kinds of issues. I didn’t realize how good i was feeling, until it went away.

    Don’t relapse. It’s not worth it. Keep going.
     
  2. Tywin Lannister

    Tywin Lannister Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for the motivation!

    Always good to try again mate
     
  3. Fallensoldier1

    Fallensoldier1 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you. The withdrawals are insane. The zombie like state, Brian fog, cold and sinus symptoms, the anxiety and depression is so scary, the fatigue is so intense. Not sleeping well, mood swings. I feel like I could go on and on.
     
  4. Sinbad

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    Thanks man. It doesn't exactly get any easier. I'm sorry to read about your struggle. Hang in there.
     
  5. Tywin Lannister

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    Sounds strange but you give me hope and trust in the process by describing your symptoms. I've been feeling (and still feel on a regular basis) very weird and dark stuff. Anxiety is not even a good description anymore. More like horror terror emptiness feelings like that. And derealisation.
     
  6. Fallensoldier1

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    Yes. I have been to visit a doctor and had some tests and stuff done and nothing was found a year ago when I started my streak.

    Sometimes lately I have thought something was wrong and needed to go back. But sometimes I feel like I wouldn’t know how to describe my symptoms, if that makes sense. They move around a lot. Unwanted negative thoughts and thoughts of doom, desperation, lightheaded, and everything I mentioned above. It can be very scary. Also I would add headaches and tingling sensations sometimes in my brain.

    Anyone else chime in with how your feeling. Let’s see if we can help each other feel better with how our current state is or what we have been through. Thinking of going back and reading some of my older posts.
     
  7. Fenix Rising

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    Thanks for the warning. I had similar experience in 2017/18, half a year of monk mode followed by 4 months of binges. I don't even know why I relapsed. Some stressful event and bingo, I was back in the rabbit hole. I lost all the progress and had to start from scratch in 2019. Long relapse is hell, I had to go through all withdrawal symptoms you described all over again. Totally not worth it. We must stay humble and vigilant all the time. Never allow ourselves to become complacent with progress we've made. Stay strong mate, things will get better. I know it sucks to go through withdrawals all over again, but it has to be done. Never ever give up. If you “fall down seven times, stand up eight.”
     
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  8. SaturnsSun

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    That’s truly scary. Thanks for the warning. Posts like this make me want to stay on course and not stray from my goals. Reminds me why I’m doing hard mode.
     
  9. SaturnsSun

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    I really don’t want to go back to this. So far my withdrawal symptoms haven’t lasted as long as I thought they would.

    Stay strong. Hang in there. You know it will get better.
     
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  10. SaturnsSun

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    This could be anxiety. I suffer from anxiety.
     
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  11. Get_It

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    You went on a binge. I don't think it's actually a full on relapse unless you binge. One fap breaking up a streak won't reverse all the positive benefits, however when you binge you do.
     
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  12. Fallensoldier1

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    I would agree. However I never struggled with anxiety before stopping PMO. I don’t want to take medication for it though.

    So how do you manage your anxiety?
     
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  13. SaturnsSun

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    Meds. There are natural ways to deal with anxiety I’ve heard.
     
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  14. Tywin Lannister

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    You have to kind of sit it out. The reason why you have "anxiety" is probably because your CNS is out of whack due to PMO. But this is a time where hidden worries come to the surface due to your system being verg vulnerable to triggers. I would write things down if you feel anxiety or other negative emotions towards a specific thing, so you can look at that later when you have a stronger CNS to deal with it.

    If you don't feel anxiety towards anything specific but just tension and dark feelings, again it's probably just your CNS out of wack which takes time to rebalance itself.

    Everyone of us doing NoFap is at some point in a kind of neurosis state. (Neurosis means disorder to the nervous system). It takes time for your CNS to get back into order again.

    You could try some very clean diet to speed up the process for your body.
     
  15. Fallensoldier1

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    I’m thinking it has to be this. Granted I have had events happen lately that are stressfull. But when I was longer on my last streak a little over 200 days, I was a lot less anxious.

    I wouldn’t say anything in particular makes me anxious but I can’t handle stress or anything right now. Any kind of semi stressful situation makes me super anxious and I’m a wreck. I forgot how bad it was.

    Our brain starts to trick us. “It probably wasn’t PMO” Or “you can look at this and it won’t escalate to this”.

    I’m here to tell you that it’s WRONG! On day 202 I thought there was no way I would relapse. I’ve been turning down temptation left and right. Day 204 I thought I’d like just at this, then later it escalated to MO and then a few weeks later I was doing and looking at stuff I never thought I would again, just like that slipped right back in.

    Luckily now I was able to snap myself back out and this is the longest streak I’ve been on since April.
     
  16. Ajikan

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    I bookmarked this for whenever I have an urge to destroy my progress.
     
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  17. Fallensoldier1

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    I’m afraid to try to take any meds too to try to get me out of stress and anxiety. I would love for my body and brain to be able to naturally heal and be able to recover and learn how to adapt on its own, also worry about side effects from drugs.

    I do take a Vitamin B complex, a D, a C and turmeric, ginger, fish oil and magnesium glycinate for bedtime.

    I also have noticed before on my early streak I would clinch and grind my teeth, due to stress I’m sure, and it would give me all sorts of problems with headaches and facial pain. That’s back as well too.
     
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  18. Fallensoldier1

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    That’s good! Stay strong. Don’t do what I did.
     
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  19. MuscularSherlockHolmes

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    Isn't it obvious. If you are a substance addict, would you go out of your way to do the dope once again to find out whether or not your reboot is successful?
     
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  20. Fallensoldier1

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    Sorry to hear this buddy. Just know, you are not alone!
     
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