This is actually a really good tactic, at least as part of a larger strategy of breaking the shackles of such a cruel addiction. Give the money to a charity you decide on ahead of time. Something like Save the Children, or maybe even a charity that serves those who have lost their financial independence (homeless, families whose homes have been repossessed, children in poverty etc.). I guess in this way you can usurp/undermine the addiction in stages...the first stage is not to get you to stop spending money, but redirecting it to an infinitely better direction....the second and later stages would be to incorporate discipline and understanding of what life looks like without this addiction. I think spending to alleviate extreme suffering will help you a lot...you are suffering yourself, and there is a chance here to help someone who is also feeling emotional pain. I don't know if you're religious or believe in something, but there is a reward in this from a higher power and you will feel a taste of peace in your heart... Good luck my brother and I really will pray for your happiness and contentment...no one deserves this..