I am 25 and still a virgin, a few years ago I've lived with room mates with toxic behaviors - filled with drugs, alcohol and one of them in particular would annoy the heck out of me, constantly bringing his new ex-girlfriends that would always break up with him a few weeks/months later and leave him depressed and crazy. One time he brought this one chubby girl that used him and manipulated and would have sex all the time, none stop, that's all they did - like mutual masturbation, it was right next to my room and I yelled at them to stop and then they go out to take a 'break' and they try to walk slowly thinking I am sleeping and I told them I am not sleeping and you both need to stop and I am tired of this, he got 'bummed out' and I told him I don't give a shit, its done if I am here this isn't happening. And that's the guy that would say 'never let girls use you like in the movies!!' and that's what would exactly happen to him everytime, right now he's dating his next ex-girlfriend and its going downhill already. I also have a friend that uses Tinder and prostitutes to have sex, he gets off one night stands and random prostitutes that cost a lot of money, he's full of ego and he's not interested in any relationship at all, he's even proud of the fact he manages to sleep with prostitutes and random women with no physical or emotional attachments.. I guess if you want that you can pretend you have a huge ego and a lot of self-esteem and put some hair jell or something and act cool to get masturbated by random women.. I guess I am keeping myself a virgin until marriage, which I should start thinking more about in the next few months, from what I've seen people that go from one relationship to another in hopes of having sex all the time just end up in a disastrous emotional distress, but I also fear rejection and fear being hurt and fear going down their path of retardation and stupidity + when I do get married I don't want to be with a woman that's been with several dozen men and been fucked in every corner, I want to be with someone like me that has saved themselves for marriage and wants to fully commit to starting and raising a family, so I either get an arranged marriage by my family or somehow I meet a girl and things click and I propose and stuff.. Which leads me to the final self-observation I don't think I am great looking and I got a low of low self-esteem issues sometimes (Not always) and I have my m.a to finish, so after February I pretty much have no excuse not to look for a girlfriend/future wife, all the thoughts of 'I am unfuckable, undesireable, unloveable' and so on are nonsense!.