Hi, so this is a different topic but I feel does tie in with (my) Nofap journey. Basically my relationship with my dad. He is quite distant and not easy to approach. For a specific example that came up not too long ago, he didn't even look at or atleast briefly touch my book type of work that I had written over months and months and months, when I came home with it. This was essently the biggest accomplishment of my life. I had relapsed so often because I was overwhelmed with this work, to just give you an idea. I'm kinda taken a back by his unwillingless to give me (or any other of my sucess moments) even a second of attention. Especially since he is an extrovert and a people person and doesn't struggle with social anxiety or anything like that. I despised him for many years. And subcobsciously disliked men and masculinity in general (because my initial contact with a man (my father) was bad. But I realized I am a man (as funny as that may sound) aswell. And subcobsciously looked past the past and gave him a chance so to say. Because I realized that I was sacrificing my my life force, my masculinity. And reclaiming it, I believe, will change my life for the better. But I'm realizing or atleast thinking my father will probably always be cold to me and anything I achieve, even if I'm the only one in my family to achieve a certain goal. This comes with sadness. There is a voice in my head saying why even bother. His rejection essently, makes me feel invisible. And makes me angry. I have never seen the show and just watched compilations/fandom on youtube but I wish I had a father like Ragnar Lothbrok. Tough but loving his children. I feel like I'm Ivar the boneless. But atleast Ivar got an accepting father.