I've been a PMO addict since I was around 12 to 14 years old; I'm 34 years old now. I've been rebooting for two years (started NoFap in June 2019) and haven't had many relapses; however, I did have a bit of a binge relapse in January that I suspect set me back a little bit. Other than that, I've been doing pretty well considering that my first-ever streak attempt was a little over 120 days. This current streak that I'm on is the longest streak that I've ever had. But lately, I've been going through this period of jagged ups and downs that are so unpredictable. I recently had an entire week where I felt more energetic, motivated, confident, and happy than I have in years. Now I'm back in this slump where I'm depressed and having minor anxiety attacks several times a day. I don't have bipolar disorder, but these sharp ups and downs almost make it seem like I do in a way because I'll go through a period of feeling terrific, then go through a period of feeling nothing but sadness and dread. Could this be a sign that a full recovery is on the horizon? Does it mean that maybe I have reached a point in the healing process in which these polarized states of mind indicate that my brain is finally doing some deep repairs and recalibrating itself? I've been thinking that could be the case because the duration of the depressive flatline slumps seems to get shorter and shorter each time they happen (as opposed to the flatlines that would drag on endlessly for months early on in my recovery). The periods of positivity that I go through seem to be a little more joyous each time too. One other thing that I've noticed recently is that my insomnia is almost nonexistent now, and that was a big problem early on in my recovery. It's almost the opposite problem now in the sense that I'm drowsy and overcome with fatigue all the time. I feel like I can't get enough sleep.