Are we the same person throughout life?

I guess where im coming from is, as we move through life, are the experiences that once had a dark grip on you at one point no longer as strong a hold as you get older? I dont wanna say what it is that i feel is holding me captive right now ive posted it many times i dont want to be redundant but Im finding myself being tortured at the moment because of certain experiences. Is the more i become further removed from these events and create new ones, the more im able to let go and no longer be held down by these things of the past? They’ll still be there in the past though, Id still would have done the acts, I cant change that. But i dont have to be that same person from the past i guess?Im asking these to myself kinda rhetorical, been communicating too much in my own head as of late, but if anyone has anything to add, please share, it might help freshen a perspective, including mine. Thanks

 

This is very true I needed to be reminded that. Helpful indeed man thank you.

 

I been tuning in to that inner spark of divinity we all have i believe as of late. It does help. That is absolutely the mindstate of an addict as you said, to keep you trapped in that identity. Im trying to take back control and hopefully the pain of the past will subside or even at some point I am forgiven and the experience is eradicated from my soul. Appreciate the 2 cents man

 

I wholeheartedly agree. Replaying those guilty and shame ridden thoughts is just adding more rubbish to the pile of shite you made yourself. The WHM is god sent and I am trying to maintain a healthy diet and lifestyle overall instead of just abstaining from pmo because your right, you get faster results and your cleansing the body of all toxins, psycho and physiologically. Approach it all as new. Thanks bro keep breathing!

 

You gotta point, keeping it all bottled up inside doesn’t have a good track record for being the most effective way to deal with these things. I know what you mean, ive kinda lightened the load here and there but for me theres other ways ive released the demons that have benefited me. I have thought about seeing a therapist but these days whats even the point of that. Im sure even therapists need some alone time or someone to talk to in these telling times. I know the answers i seek are mostly within me and theres plenty of validation i can get from all the knowledge out there past and present and use that to help me out and create those new pathways as I go. I know for sure i need to just make better choices. Every choice has a consequence and im paying for said choices now. I need to make better conscious choices. Thanks man

 

Indeed it is and I’m at that point now. I feel like I can have everyone in the world look at me and say we forgive you yet I still wouldn’t find it in me to forgive myself. But thats my cross to bear at the moment. Stay strong as well brother, peace.

 

Coming from one of the only men to set foot on the moon, your living proof anything’s possible! Haha Appreciate it Buzz!

 

The only conclusions i can come to as to how i got here is that I fucked up and I was a vulnerable kid and growing up I never had much guidance nor knowledge of self combined with the personal struggles of my upbringing, I was susceptible to a life of depression drugs and eventually pmo which stems from my childhood being sexually abused made my whole mind warped. Man sometimes I still feel like im in dark shallow corner alone because of the fucking fact that my dumbass went and did what i did. I look at the guys i know in my life and I look at them with just a god bless em outlook because i know we all go through our own shit but at least they didnt do this sissy shit i did. Its pathetic and I know it. The only way I know i can come back from all this is through my actions aligned with my thoughts of consciousness, the righteous thoughts. Not those evil sick demented thoughts that have plagued my brain since i was 15 and no longer giving into em. I have to take my power back. I know exactly why i did what i did and how it lead up to that point. Thats where i find some kind of comfort. That i can pinpoint what it was that got me there. And the simple truth and it isnt me deflecting responsibility of my actions i take full accountability, but the truth is I’m not that same person anymore. I was literally in a state of hypnosis without a doubt in a trance. And now im learning to treat myself like i would someone else i care for thank you jordan peterson. I can come back from this. You cant change the past but you know what, I believe if you begin living in the present moment and have a vision of a better future, you can go back in your past and envision yourself doing certain things differently. We humans give up so much power to this world and our sick society but the real power is all within. I just ask everyday god or the universe or whatever to forgive me for going down a misguided path and enable me the strength to move on and live with that spark of energy i once had before my innocence was shattered. Almost teared up typing this. Advice id give is to make sure you dont keep all this bottled up inside like i have. Its okay to talk to someone or find an outlet to release that fire inside you. Dont lose hope and understand you’re only as wise as the ways you went down and where you choose to go decides all that if that made any sense. Sorry for long post. Thanks