Aren't women amazing? 10 Months of NoFap. Today is a day where I might say I feel truly rebooted. After 10 Months of Ups and Downs and a few resets. In the last 10 Months I fapped 7 times and I watched 2 times Porn. Sometimes I slipped up watching Psubs for a couple of minutes. My longest streak was about 140 days. Followed by a 58 days streak and a few 30 day streaks. When I reset I regret it every time, I knew it wasn't worth it and I felt weak. But I was strong enough to get back on the horse every time. I knew I couldn't go back to this addiction or I would slowly fade away. It took me very long to get this thoughts of giving in out of my head. Now after 10 Months I feel this thoughts are so much more lighter. They lose their power over me day by day. It's like the sun and all the happiness that came into my life burnt them and now the 'porn fairy-tale' is crawling on the floor and begging for mercy. The new healthy thinking patterns now overweight them. Porn is just a poisoned cookie. When I came back to my hometown a few weeks ago some people didn't even recognize me at first, because I have changed that much. My whole body language, my face, my skin, the way I speak it's all so different now. There's this energy inside me and it's shining to the outside. My porn induced social anxiety is totally gone. I'm not thinking anymore about what other people may think while I speak to them. I'm just IN the talk. IN the moment. Meditation also played a big role here. I finally started to chase girls in real life and it feels amazing. I did my first cold approach a few days ago and I was going insane, but it felt so good afterwards. Maybe this seems like nothing to you, but it's the world for me. All the years I've been so feared of girls laughing at me or rejecting me. She gave me her number - in the end she didn't wanted to go out with me, but it's not a problem. The whole thing about this is that I learned to be not feared of rejection anymore. This fear was killing me from inside. Every rejection is better than regret. That's for sure. You remember this feeling when you first experienced your sexuality? Girls had these incredible magic. Porn killed this magic. They are humans just like us and they want to connect, feel each others body and share true feelings. The first month is a hell of a ride, especially when you're doing it for the first time. But I tell you it is totally worth it! It's not about the girls that will sense your confidence and glow and will smile to you. It's about you! You will feel happy and connected with the world again. You will feel secure once again. And exited to live your life as an adventure and get in touch with your true self again! On this way there are a lot of good ways to reduce urges like the cold showers, the push ups, replacing old habits with new ones, going out and meet people, doing sports. But I think the ultimate way is to have a strong vision. Never lose the trust in yourself, draw a picture in your head of the life you want live. Maybe today is bad day and everything is just shit, but it will be better soon. See this setbacks as a sign or a motivation to go further! See NoFap as a pill that will reduce your anxiety more and more. In reality it's not a pill, it's just you healing yourself of all the shit porn has done to you! You will kick this habit! Show the porn industry you can use your intelligence and sense their lies. Look into a bright future! You deserve it! Peace.