Argument in NoFap

Hiya.

Been going on 5 days PMO free. No Porn. No P-Subs. No Edging. Nada

One of the reasons I wanna do this is because of my relationship... See.. I've been with the same girl for 4 years. We talk about marriage and it'll probably happen. I'm completely in love with her.

We used to argue A LOT. I do mean A Lot. But we worked things out and for the last year or so, we've been awesome. Truly and utterly happy.

But we just argued. . which is fine.. we argued about how we talked to one another during a little back-and-forth tiff. I felt she wasn't truly listening or validating me and she felt I was being rude and an asshole. Both of us were right..but it was just a miss, ya know? She was acting as if she didn't give a shit about what I was saying but yet she was verbally acknowledging what I was saying.."I hear you..I understand". But it was so monotone and blank. She clearly was just paying lip service.

So I stormed off..now I'm in the spare room by myself. Super tempted right now to look at porn. I'm not turned on. I'm angry and upset. My brain is trying to trick me into self-soothing that way and I won't let it. But I acknowledge it. I observed the thoughts and moved on.

I'm determined for it to not happen. I'm going to distract myself by doing shit around the house instead of holing up in a room by myself and with my thoughts.. send positive vibes. It's just an argument, right?

Namaste