Yesterday was a new low for me. I found out an actress I liked had gotten out of the industry because she was on drugs. I watched an interview where she talked about all the abuse she suffered when she was young, her fear that nobody could ever really love her, and how that propelled her into the industry. I watched all of that, and instead of feeling sorrow for my past actions and compassion for her, I watched her old videos anyway. Today though, after the fog, I just feel like the worst human being possible.