At day 95, went to a male masseuse, got precum. Is this gonna rewire me to be gay? I also have HOCD

EckhartTold

EckhartTold

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Im sorry if the question seems weird and offensive. I got nothing against the LGBT community. I have had HOCD in the past and now I feel its coming back.

Also, i used to be addicted to gay porn and it took me a long time to recover from it. (i still am recovering). All this had given me HOCD.

Back to the topic: When he massaged my back, I got a bit hard and later I found out i got a lot of precum from the massage.

Ive been in flatline for the most part, until a few days back when i got a wet dream, so this massage made me a bit hard. Has anyone here gotten an erection at a male massage place? I've read that it is not uncommon, but i wanna know if this will rewire me or something?
 
You can’t be rewired to become gay if you are truly straight, same vice versa.

Your sexual orientation is imprinted in you, no matter what it can’t change.

Even if you’ve escalated in porn, it doesn’t mean your sexuality changed, it just means you have an addiction and you are seeking dopamine.

After 95 days, you still feel an attraction to men?
 
TreyBall said:
You can’t be rewired to become gay if you are truly straight, same vice versa.

Your sexual orientation is imprinted in you, no matter what it can’t change.

Even if you’ve escalated in porn, it doesn’t mean your sexuality changed, it just means you have an addiction and you are seeking dopamine.

After 95 days, you still feel an attraction to men?
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No I don’t feel attracted. In fact my normal sexual tastes were coming back these days. Idk this whole precum thing got me worried today.

Thanks for replying though! Made me feel a bit better. I’ve also read that the back muscles when stimulated cause sexual arousal. Doesn’t matter whether it’s a guy or girl doing it. So yeah. Makes sense..
 
In my honest opinion bro, if you are starting to notice your attractions coming back you should rewire with a real women.

I was in your spot 3 years ago, gay porn and HOCD, but I just kept going on 1-2 week streaks and relapsing on vanilla porn and this reverted my tastes.

my story is weird... I was so young, 12-15 years old. I started with girls pics to lesbians to straight to gay, I can’t watch gay now at all without wanting to throw up and I feel no arousal to it, also I never felt attraction to men in real life.
 
Hey
Maybe I can help you

I know your Situation and can only partly agree with TreyBall.
I agree with that your sexuality is something unique, that everybody has and that it can between homosexuality and heterosexuality (in General beeing attracted to men or women; in this Explanation I see transgender and transsexuals as the same Talking About either being attracted to men or women)
Please have a look on the Kinsey scale - this scale explains on a natural way the different sexualities.

So coming to your post:
You are rebooting, you started to NoFap after years (I guess) of watching porn aka filling your brain with Pictures, Videos etc. and Training your brain on getting hard on XYZ.
No with your reboot your brain rewires and your natural process of attraction Lights up (slower or faster, sooner or later) - having precum after a male massage does not say anything but that you had precum after a male massage during your rebootingday X.
Own it. Feel it and Overall be grateful that your brain rewires. Enjoy the process bro. And be excited About where to go next (Talking About your individual natural excitement)

Hope I could help (sry for the Capital letters - it is automatically and I do not want to go through it again :) )

All the best bro,

LCD
 
Livestrong95 said:
Hey
Maybe I can help you

I know your Situation and can only partly agree with TreyBall.
I agree with that your sexuality is something unique, that everybody has and that it can between homosexuality and heterosexuality (in General beeing attracted to men or women; in this Explanation I see transgender and transsexuals as the same Talking About either being attracted to men or women)
Please have a look on the Kinsey scale - this scale explains on a natural way the different sexualities.

So coming to your post:
You are rebooting, you started to NoFap after years (I guess) of watching porn aka filling your brain with Pictures, Videos etc. and Training your brain on getting hard on XYZ.
No with your reboot your brain rewires and your natural process of attraction Lights up (slower or faster, sooner or later) - having precum after a male massage does not say anything but that you had precum after a male massage during your rebootingday X.
Own it. Feel it and Overall be grateful that your brain rewires. Enjoy the process bro. And be excited About where to go next (Talking About your individual natural excitement)

Hope I could help (sry for the Capital letters - it is automatically and I do not want to go through it again :) )

All the best bro,

LCD
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you don’t think he should rewire with a real women?

I feel as if the only way for him to overcome his HOCD would be to rewire his brain...

I think you should definitely check out the Kinsey scale, but don’t let it become an obsession. Also this could be extreme but if you want to really work on your HOCD, I would suggest looking up pictures of naked men vs women to see which interests you.

Don’t look for a reaction, but observe the pictures, just look at them and whatever thoughts come into your brain do not react.

for me, looking at naked pictures of men bring no arousal or interest, even though my thoughts would come in when I had HOCD and tell me I liked them, when I let my thoughts be it didn’t take long to realize I didn’t enjoy the pictures.

Looking at pics of women got me aroused/hard and horny.

remember the key is not to react to your thoughts, let them be natural no matter how much anxiety you feel.
 
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