Hello, I’ve been fellow struggler and reader for a long time. Posting for the first time. I am 30 years old. PMO has been a problem for me for a long time maybe since 15 years, recent years involving dirtier imagery as time passes by. I first realized the problem about 6 years ago, when I had severe PIED with a partner which really shattered me. I haven’t had a good physical relationship since then. The PIED continued for a long time which made me want to try Nofap. Since then I have made many attempts but relapsed, sometimes in a day, sometimes in a week and sometimes in month. There have been some periods in between of heavy PMO during relapse binges. I have just relapsed hard this week after a 2 month streak which is my longest and I have achieved it only once before. I was doing fine but I started a European vacation and seeing a lot of beautiful women and having no partner was starting to mess with my head in a depressing way. I relapsed bad and have been going for a week. Started with just adult chats and today I reached explicit images which included all my previous behaviour of pushing it further everytime. I am tired of failing again and again. I had started feeling the benefits of the 2 month streak with regards to general mood, sociability and such, but not sure that I had cured the PIED. I feel like I have ripped open the wound and that too violently with the relapse. I hope the damage is not extensive. I am going to try again and I will give it my all. I will start excercising, eat a better diet and live healthier. I will start a clicker, post updates when I find time and reach out for help in weak times like the one I just encountered. I want to live a healthy and purposeful life l, achieving all the dreams that I have and also create healthy relationships with people. On a side note, I have quit smoking for a year and relapsed for a year. Right now I have a 4 month no smoking streak going strong. I also stopped drinking for a month in May, which doesn’t sound like much but it is, since is a problem for me sometimes. I think there is a hidden strength in me somewhere, which I will find. Thank you for hearing me out. It’s my way or the highway this time.