I'm writing this to vent to someone. I've never had a girlfriend and Im 17. I've never kissed a girl, nothing. I've been told SO many times that I am super attractive etc. People are always surprised to find out I'm not some stud with the ladies. Yet I have never had anything close to a girlfriend. Almost every guy I meet is envious of me. They immediately put me down when I first meet them and I haven't even said a word. They don't let me near their girlfriends. I'm the butt of every joke. Yet girls always come to me and tell me I'm super cute or something. Then why do I feel like no one likes me?! All the gay guys adore me if that counts for something haha. I think it's because my self esteem is at rock bottom. I have depression as well as social anxiety. And I know everyone says that nowadays, so now I just feel like a "woe is me" type of person. I just got done texting this girl I really like, but she seems uninterested. She gave me her number, but never texted me and only gives short responses like she isnt interested. I asked her out over the summer, and she said "maybe", (never happened). I'm so tired of this loneliness. I've never had a best friend. I've never had a person i felt like i could trust. I've been backstabbed by people too many times to count. My "friends" are hanging out right now and conveniently left me out. Like always. I'm sorry if this seems like a pity party. I'm just sick and tired of this loneliness. I want someone who I can talk. I want to know that someone trusts me enough to reach out to me.