Back after 5 years

Just want to give an update on my progress in case it might be of any use to anyone now or in the future.

Day 11 today. Still very tired especially mid morning to mid afternoon. Honestly feel like I'm pregnant I'm so tired at points. Yawning a lot and just pretty wiped out. Felt good last night, almost normal, but evenings are usually when I'm best. Not feeling quite so good tonight. I'm hoping I'm seeing some improvement in my anxiety level, mood and lack of energy but can't really say with any certainty at the moment. I looked back last night at a load of emails I'd sent to an accountability partner last time I rebooted and once I was into 20 plus days I was noticing definite changes so hoping it won't be too long. Now real interest in PMO or anything like that, just feel too rough to care. I guess this will become more of an issue that I'll need to watch for as I start to feel better.

 

Day 12

Tired and anxious this morning but I was out of the house doing some things by mid afternoon and felt good pretty much since then. Still have a low grade headache and not totally relaxed but it's a relief from how I feel in the mornings.

Going out for the day with family tomorrow so should be interesting to see how I can get on. Hopefully not too tired, would be good to have a nice relaxed day that was a bit more normal.

Had some urges earlier that I would previously have acted on but when I know it'll make me feel so bad I'd wish I was dead I have no interest.

Stay strong men. As Winston Churchill said "When you're going through hell, keep going"

 

Day 13

Felt OK when I got up and was out all day with family walking over 5 miles. Managed it OK but dog tired when I got home home. Feeling calmish now that it's the evening but still tired.

 

Day 27

Had 3 good days where I thought maybe I was through the worst but last 2 day have been difficult! Feel anxious and hopeless a lot of the time. I just want to feel better. Was nice having a little break for 3 days but feel robbed now. Will I ever be happy again?