So I was running pretty strong approaching the two month mark and then I gave up control. Beginning a few days ago, I noticed myself looking at sensual content on twitter and youtube-- this was a big mistake! Yesterday, my mind started to wander into the realm of porn, starting with googling pornstar names. Before I knew it I was looking to see if there was any new content published in my favorite genres. After some hours of deliberation I clicked a link, just to see what it was about, and it was over. Today I gave in, PMO session after 58 days of being clean. This was my longest streak so far. Right before this failure, I hit a period of heavy anxiety, which transitioned into a flatline with anhedonia. Following this agitated stated was a period of intense craving for porn. I believe this was a very devious part of the PAWS syndrome, something I thought I was prepared for, yet I didn't expect it to be so strong. Note to my future self: "Stay vigilant as if Day 60 is Day 1."