If you are here, thank you. I got to just over 90 days, but I could feel myself getting too casual and wasn't serious enough about recovery. Yesterday I masturbated without porn, and today I did. I thought I could look for a second and turn it off, but that's the way it works. I never gave the porn filters serious consideration before. I think that had better change. I have encouraged others who have stumbled before, and I am not going to throw a pity party for myself now. The only good thing I can see from stumbling is that the number of days does not matter, it's the quality of commitment. Also, I really felt the true emptiness of masturbating to porn. It was so hollow. Yes, I was turned on, but it felt very forced and fake, like I was eating rich food that I didn't want to put in my mouth but ate it out of habit anyway.