Back to Zero

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Ogikubo, Apr 23, 2019.

  1. If you are here, thank you. I got to just over 90 days, but I could feel myself getting too casual and wasn't serious enough about recovery. Yesterday I masturbated without porn, and today I did. I thought I could look for a second and turn it off, but that's the way it works.
    I never gave the porn filters serious consideration before. I think that had better change. I have encouraged others who have stumbled before, and I am not going to throw a pity party for myself now.
    The only good thing I can see from stumbling is that the number of days does not matter, it's the quality of commitment. Also, I really felt the true emptiness of masturbating to porn. It was so hollow. Yes, I was turned on, but it felt very forced and fake, like I was eating rich food that I didn't want to put in my mouth but ate it out of habit anyway.
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  2. I hope you will break this habit again and start a new NoFap streak. The worst thing you can do is underestimating an enemy.
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  3. Yeah. I need to regroup and refresh and start again, armed with better knowledge. Thank you.
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  4. QuietKarma

    QuietKarma Fapstronaut

    Although your streak may be back to zero, you are certainly not back to zero in terms of progress. You went over 90 days without porn or masturbation - that's huge and means you are a long way towards clearing your mind from this addiction.
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  5. Yes, for me that is lifetime huge. I appreciate your kind words very much. Thank you. I am determined to do better.
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  6. Thistimeitsfinal

    Thistimeitsfinal Fapstronaut

    Keep up the fight. As its been said before, we cannot ever drop our guard or under estimate the enemy.
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  7. Thank you. I sincerely appreciate your words.
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  8. Anubis_2020

    Anubis_2020 New Fapstronaut

    Well after 15 years of addiction I have to try this !
    I just decided enough is enough and joined this group. Seeing some of you with reset counters makes me feel less "behind", I know it sounds silly but I almost tried everything and I keep falling back so I hope with the support here I can finally end that vicious cycle. And growing my counter with others makes me feel less in the shadows about this
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  9. Welcome! You have made a great choice. Having to be a little accountable is probably the best first step anyone can make. It isn't easy. It can be very frustrating. I know it is worth it. Living a lie isn't fun. So welcome again!
  10. Guys, I fucked up again.
    I need to reset to zero.
    This is way harder than I had thought. I will not give up but I must wonder why I am so weak recently.
    I can give good advice to others, but I do not follow it myself. It sucks seeing the key but not being able to use it.
    Last edited: Apr 29, 2019

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