Bad Dream & My Self Improvement Accomplishments & Goals

I had a dream last night that I was searching on my computer for porn and I woke up before anything could happen but it scared me because I have made a lot of progress in new areas of my life all of which I consider to be self improvement. These areas are:

~Exercise (focusing on calisthenics workouts)
~General School Work
~Piano (trying to learn all 36 major minor and harmonic scales before the end of the year and one song)
~Cutting back on drinking (My goal is no more than 2 a day with 4 on any day being the maximum. No more than 14 drinks in a week)
~Quit smoking cigarettes and moved to cigars (they say cigars are not a safe alternative to cigs but Im sure cigars are still safer (no inhalation))
~Learning penmanship with the Palmer Method (quicker method of writing than what I was taught growing up and still looks more ornamental)
~LSAT studying

Im afraid and I'm almost sure if I went back to watching porn I would not be able to juggle all these things because I wasn't able to juggle them when I was watching porn in the past. I wouldn't have the energy for exercise, I would probably go back to drinking and smoking cigarettes (three bad habits that went together for me in the past were drinking, smoking, and porn) and I don't think I would have the discipline for general school work, the LSAT, or penmanship. Procrastibating used to get me all the time. I am very glad and feel very lucky that I woke up from the dream when I did.

 

I think you're right about not worrying about the dream and how it may be destructive behavior symbolized. I would not like it to become self fulfilling either by worrying too much and giving the dream too much credit.