6 hours to go...for getting 3 days clean. Feeling restless to really post my update and really be on the wagon again. I have blocked YouTube, reddit etc as suggested by @PrioritySystem using Cold Turkey. It is saving plenty of time for me to devote to reading books, talking to my relatives on phone and things like that. Day 3/207
13/12 days of semen retention. I'm officially in the best place I've ever been in terms of rebooting.
470 days SR 42 days no sex A bit tired Sleep: Woke up at 2am. Gym & girls: rest day /yoga. A girl at the gym very attractive told me to give her a neck massage, which I did. The girl I'm seeing at the gym I told her yesterday that we're just friends, she kind of likes to talk a lot and doesn't want to see me outside the gym, she wants to know me better before moving things further this looks like she wants to control the relationship so I put a break on it and used the friend card, I'm surprised she texted me good morning today and gave me a kiss today at the gym. Yesterday a fitness model I dated past weekend texted me 6 minutes after I told the gym girl we were just friends. I honestly forgot about her, we didn't talk since then. We almost had sex that day. I always back off a little after being intimate with a girl, even do everything varies on each case, usually when I get intimate with a girl that is the moment I stop chasing I wait for them to text me first, to be more into me, girls need that, for you to be a bit of a challenge, even do I do it naturally I don't play games I simply back off a bit. She seems to be really into me, I think probably I'll be with her some months because she's leaving the country. The gym girl, I don't see any certainty with her so I'll simply will roll slow with her. The girl I gave a massage today we've been talking lately and I'm considering her too, she's very attractive too but there's something I don't like about her I'm not sure what it is. There's some other girls but it's not certain so I don't want to mention it. I'm still waiting for the right girl, so no rush. Study: really hard almost non stop, I didn't meditate too much today and added cold showers. I'm feeling a bit tired.
21/100 Every day is a struggle if you let it be. Control the mind, control your actions, and you will control the outcome. Many times it's as simple as that.
21/21... I've matched my streak! Looking forward to beating it and completing this challenge tomorrow.
471 days SR 43 days no sex Murder This fitness model I dated past weekend texted me yesterday to meet up again I told her I'll give her a "massage" she agreed to meet up in a motel. She just texted me telling me she can't make it, one of her staff members, her father owns three gyms, a trainer was murdered outside the gym. So she needs to do something at the gym. She hasn't told me, but I believed the trainer was screwing around with a married girl at the gym that's why he was murdered. I don't feel like having sex today, so I told her to meet some other day, I used the excuse of she having to deal with that problem to not see her. We'll probably have to see each other at night today and I prefer sleeping early than having sex.
22/21... There we go, streak beat. I feel a little hollow about it right now, but whatever. Loftier goals lie ahead.
472 days SR 44 days no sex Sex and semen retention are the easy part Today I did some yoga with a girl at the gym, she told me she noticed another girl at the gym is into me. I think she is but I pretended I didn't realiced it. I saw the other girl on my way home. Girls bro, sex and semen retention are so easy compare to deal with girls, but understanding girls, dealing with their egos and emotions that is the hard part it's insane sometimes you need to be 100% to not be crushed or affected by a girls mind. Sex that is the easy part.
