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473/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 16/12 semen retention, it's been smooth sailing so far today, I hope I don't forget all the techniques and concepts that helped me by ending up at a really high number without resistance, I hope I don't get urges but I need to come back to the site to sharpen my knowledge and keep growing, to never believe that I can't learn something new.

Bro, I've had stomach ulcer for years, all you need is to cut out sodas, live with no stress, have a positive mindset, eat banana and drink a glass of water with cayenne pepper(if you need a quick fix). I've used prescription in the past but no pills or antibiotics is going to address the root cause of why you got it unless you change your lifestyle. Go the natural route before turning to pills.

Btw this ain't medical advice.

 

Thanks for sharing your experience with that!
I don't consume any soda. Just clear water and sometimes some fruit juices. Regarding the Cayenne pepper I don't really want to take it, because my rectal lining also has some kind of inflammation. And I had got some bleeding while passing stool (when it was tight) till last month. So to avoid this I am ensuring I am hydrated so the stool remains softer and not that solid to scratch the rectal area while pooping. Pepper might irritate the area, I am afraid so reducing the intake as much as possible.

Yeah I totally agree on the lifestyle change. I am trying to have my meal on time and really follow a routine.
Thanks again!

 

Day 1/22

 

473 days semen retention
44 days no sex

Le petit prince
An ex girlfriend gave me some years back the little prince book in french as a present, she even wrote some words in the book dedicated to me. I lent the book some days back to the girl I'm seeing, she wanted to have it, I'm also teaching her some french.
Today she wanted to write over the book and asked me if it's ok. I told her that the book is now hers and she can do it.
She was delighted, I've never seen her so happy.
It's strange how a little detail can change a persons mood.

I'm also starting to study some neurology. It's fun.

 

0/16

 

0/33

I messed up today morning again. It's been some days since my last post here and thought of doing it again.
Will see how this goes.

 

Well I am sad to see you all relapse. Hope you all will bounce back soon.

 

Don't be sad for me , last relapse was a lesson. i've learned something from it and I'm sure no relapse will ever happen again.

 

Great! More strength to you brother!

 

17/12, I find I am most vulnerable in the morning right as I wake up, in my half sleep state I sort of instinctually start humping the bed lmao.

However whenever I come to my senses I'm in much more control but morning is when I'm weakest in terms of impulse control.

 

Unfortunately, I have to report I relapsed yesterday after 67 days! Got intimate with my girlfriend on Saturday and the urges yesterday were too much for me to bear. Anyway, 0/67

 

Get rid of your girlfriend lol.

 

Does she know about you doing NoFap? Maybe telling her about NoFap will make your life easier and she may help you somehow. It is a dangerous expectation actually. Considering that most relationship these days are focused on sex. I am not saying that you are also in the relationship just for sex and not to grow together as companions.

 

I am in a big quandary on what to do about her and my nofap journey .

 

Yes, she knows about my nofap journey and my struggles with porn. We had actually agreed to not get intimate for an indefinite period of time. This helped a lot with me remaining clean for 67 days. But I lost control on Saturday. I will talk to her again about it and tell her how it has affected me. At least the very least I want to complete 90 days clean

 

474/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

0/207. Relapsed again.

 

Monk vs relationship (from a former monk perspective)

Current streak: 474 days no PMO, semen retention

I was a monk, I lived in a monastery, and also I was a voluntary celibate for many years, I had this notion since 10 y.o to be a free man and my happiness needed to be independent from any external source, including girls.

At some point in university I decided to date girls, it wasn’t as bad as I thought and I can say some months with a girl taught me more about myself, than 10 years alone doing meditation.

In Taoism celibacy is considered an advanced practice; they consider that to balance your sexual energy is more difficult while being single.

At the beginning dating girls helped me to balance my sexual energy, also girls have helped me to work on myself, they act as a mirror of your own flaws, they can make you go crazy, angry, lustful if you don’t handle a relationship the right way.

The problem of being alone is that you can simply ignore your own flaws and it won’t matter, with girls is more like being at war you are in the battlefield and if you don’t want to die you need to develop emotional, psychological and energetic strength so you can handle a girl.

As you can see dealing with girls as been more for me a process to help me grow, they are more like a psychological work to me than a pleasure.

Right now I still keep learning from girls, so I keep dating. Maybe later I’ll be back to be alone. Only time and my own evolution will tell.

Conclusion
-See your interactions with girls as a process of self-growth