BEAT YOUR LONGEST STREAK

4/17

 

Day 56/64

 

5/17

 

Day 66/12 semen retention.

 

17/22
I can’t believe I got so far!

 

I'm in on this challenge, day 4/40

 

I relapsed again. My brother let me see a sexy photo on Instagram and I then watched more and aroused myself, then the day after, the chaser effect was very strong and I watched a porn video. My brother had no fault in this, it's me that I let myself arouse by watching more photos.

Now I know what to do to win the battle against pmo, I need to not watch Instagram at all, easy.

Starting again from 00:00 of tomorrow.

 

Day 10 of 67

 

One thing I've recently discovered to prevent myself from getting aroused by women online is by suspending my belief.

It's the opposite of what we do when we watch a movie, say you're watching the avengers for example.

You know there will be superpowers and all sorts of craziness you'd never see in real life, you know it's not real but to allow yourself to enjoy the experience you suspend your disbelief, if you didn't you'd constantly be pointing out everything that's not real and thus wouldn't be able to enjoy it and ruin the experience for your friends if others are watching with you. If someone dies in the movie you'd be like "they're just acting" instead of feeling sad or whatever.

For beautiful women you might see online, you can do the opposite, don't suspend your disbelief, that will make it difficult to enjoy what you see. Be like "it's only a picture, what, am I supposed to stick my penis on a screen? Don't be ridiculous".

See everything for what it is.

 

Day 4/120

 

Day 3/22

 

Day 19/24. Had extreme sexual fantasies last night and into this early morning. Woke up at 3:50am today, and was soon overwhelmed with sexual fantasies. Beat the urge to fap throughout the next hour until I was finally able to fall asleep again. During the sleep though, I had a wet dream, I even woke up to it because I realized what was happening. I checked below to see how much seed I spilled and was surprised to see only a little bit of fluid that I had to open up my tip to see. I checked to see if there was wetness or loads anywhere on my bed or sheets and found nothing. It was like the fluid reached the tip of penis and just stopped.
Anyways, I felt a little down, as I am practicing retention, however I was happy as it made me tired again and I was able to fall asleep.
I am not counting this as a failure for two reasons: It was a wet dream, and the load was so small it seemed to not affect me at all in terms of energy levels, confidence, my out look on life etc. I didn't feel the negative energies I usually do after PMOing.

 

Day 57/64

 

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0/20
Starting from scratch...

 

Yes, Stop using those Instagram or any other social media. Social media are the beginning of relapsed. There are many pictures to trigger you, then you fall into porn again.

I erased my social media apps and blocked the website too (using BlockSite). I am only using private social media like Whatapps and Line. It's good though, like doing social media detox. You can mantain your urges and also save your time from scrolling social media.

 

2/12
Forgot to check yesterday

 

Day 67/12 semen retention.

 

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