BEAT YOUR LONGEST STREAK

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What led up to your reset? Boredom? Loneliness? Stress? What can you do differently next time? I’ve found it helpful to pinpoint the reasons why I fail and try to change the circumstances so that it doesn’t happen in the same way in the future. I’ve been able to extend my streaks significantly by doing this.
 
What led up to your reset? Boredom? Loneliness? Stress? What can you do differently next time? I’ve found it helpful to pinpoint the reasons why I fail and try to change the circumstances so that it doesn’t happen in the same way in the future. I’ve been able to extend my streaks significantly by doing this.
Yeah it was a stress release; I edged the day before and I guess my urge wasn't "satisfied" so I felt the need to "finish it off". But I'm getting back up, and I've been analyzing what leads to my relapses over the past months. Unfortunately, it's been a long process, and I've realized that the reasons are very deep (issues with my Dad, confusion over my sexuality as I seek out gay porn, my social disconnection and anxiety, my refusal to come to terms with my autism for so long, all of the stress I've built up over most of my life trying to mask and appear "normal"). So it's not going to happen overnight. But I've been learning a lot about myself recently and I'm determined to tackle these underlying issues.

Thanks for your concern; wishing you well on your NoFap journey too :)
 
Yeah it was a stress release; I edged the day before and I guess my urge wasn't "satisfied" so I felt the need to "finish it off". But I'm getting back up, and I've been analyzing what leads to my relapses over the past months. Unfortunately, it's been a long process, and I've realized that the reasons are very deep (issues with my Dad, confusion over my sexuality as I seek out gay porn, my social disconnection and anxiety, my refusal to come to terms with my autism for so long, all of the stress I've built up over most of my life trying to mask and appear "normal"). So it's not going to happen overnight. But I've been learning a lot about myself recently and I'm determined to tackle these underlying issues.

Thanks for your concern; wishing you well on your NoFap journey too :)
Thanks for sharing such personal struggles. Family relationships can be so stressful. When it comes to confusion about sexuality, you probably didn’t start off watching gay porn. Escalation leads people to go places and look at things that they would never have considered before. Into truly troubling and sometimes even illegal content. That doesn’t mean that they have a taste for such filth, but the addiction just wants new content so eventually you seek out the content that was previously off limits. As you stop looking at that content, it will fade away.

While I’m not autistic, I do know what it feels like to not accept a diagnosis and to have to mask. I was diagnosed with ADHD about 20 years ago and finally accepted the diagnosis about 2 years ago and have made significant improvements since then. It’s hard to accept that there might be something wrong or different about us. We just want to be like everyone else.
Accepting yourself for who you are can really help you move forward and live a better life.

These are all heavy burdens. If you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to message me separately.

You have the right attitude. Keep trying and you’ll get there.
 
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