Becoming aware of split second triggers

As I am going through the 30 days challenge, I thought of written down the triggers and patterns that happens when the impulse arise.

1. Lunchtime, after I grab lunch, and seeking entertainment/rest from my workspace.
2. Boredom after finishing my daily tasks, of sense of needing to pleasure myself, usually in the afternoon/evening.
3. When I don't feel motivated to work, and feeling demoralized.
4. After dinner, excuses comes such as 'just want to test my will', 'just need to be social' and I'm tempted to browse through websites that would trigger me. This tend to be the strongest impulse usually.
5. Late evening, by browsing and a visual trigger arise. A sudden activation by watching a content via youtube etc. Can be resolve by shutting down my laptop.

These are the some of the major ones I have to been keenly aware of when they occur.

 

more triggers:
in the evening, I was watching a doc on netflix and had scenes in stripclub. felt the urge to feel the feminine body, and was thinking of seeking an escort. for a few minutes, seriously considered browsing online for escorts, but managed not to fall into that temptation. My mind went to escort as 'it doesn't count', since its not part of nofap challenge. I guess i see why orgasm in general should be taken into consideration in setting the challenge. The mind comes with clever excuses in how I can indulge in my cravings. Glad I didn't fall into the temptation today.

 

Strong unconscious trigger today:
Made the mistake of going to social cam chat via my phone. I tended to go from my computer, and thought if i use my phone i will not be tempted to play but just have normal social chat. I was wrong. I almost relapsed. The cam chat is from now on an ABSOLUTE NO, in no case whatsoever. The trigger led me wanted to amplification, a higher dopamine release via check girls cam video. and I checked an escort page.
Another self note, stroking counts as masturbation. If i stroke for any visual sexual stimulation, it would be considered a relapse. I need to make a more concrete and conscious definition of nofap. The mind play games and in a subtle way try to convince certain things are alright while in truth it is not.
Today is Day 3 and a real challenge, due to the fall into a subtle temptation. Some would say I was 'fishing'. I just I was. Now I know.
My Final Note: No more casual cam chat.

 

Today.
The mind is trying to find new ways to 'fish' for its dopamine boost in unhealthy way. Today I was listening to the JRE podcast and at one point someone mentioned pcp and drugs. I got a kick out of it, and I starting thinking of P and drugs. Though i dont take drugs, the thought itself gave me a high that i wanted to see extreme P in drugged state. And i need to exclude P pictures, not just videos. The mind is trying to be cunning in finding excuses. No concession should be allowed.

 

today:
subtle feeling of boredom, leads directly to needing some sense of visual / P stimulation. Due to being subtle, it is harder to see. Felt catch into stream of thoughts about finding some sexual satisfaction. need to be more attention of the restlessness of boredom and not trying to escape it. and also, find some pastime, creative endeavor, task to fill time that was spent/wasted on P.