Becoming my best self

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Malachyn, Sep 22, 2019.

  1. Malachyn

    Malachyn Fapstronaut

    Hello all,

    This is the first time I have ever posted on any forum but I believe in nofap and this community. I have been viewing porn since before puberty. I remember being exposed to magazines at a very young age then diving right into digital pornography as soon as computers really started taking off. I have had PIED my entire life which has made me very self conscious and lacking confidence when it comes to sex with another person. As of writing this post, I am 30 years old and single. I haven't necessarily done bad with attracting females in the past but not always the ones that I am the most interested in. I have been told that I am an attractive guy and have had girlfriends in the past, including one very long relationship. That being said, sex and my frequent inability to become erect has been an issue in every single relationship I have been in. I have been rejected by some very wonderful and beautiful people because of it, which has hurt my confidence and self talk. I have been attempting to do nofap for a few years now, with only 1 streak that I did not keep track of proving that I am not broken, but instead have bad mental processes about sex. I have never had an issue with getting fully erect to pornography so I truly believe this is mental, and not a physical fault. I have relapsed during every attempt I have ever made to fix this addiction. Since keeping track via a timer app starting in april of 2019, I have made 42 attempts to break this addiction, with my longest streak being 24 days. I am on day 20 today. I feel strong and determined. I KNOW this will be a lifelong battle for me as it has been an issue my entire life. I have zero confidence to bring a female home right now but I have faith that I will gain that confidence as I travel further along the nofap journey. These 20 days havent been completely 'hard mode'. I have edged a few times and MO'd no P. I have looked at P once or twice without O but for a short time, which I regretted. I do not think I am going to do it again but I know I must be disciplined. I am tired of having an unhealthy and stressful sex life. I am going to change it this time and I am committed to doing so. I appreciate all of the stories people have posted, it has inspired me and helped open up my eyes to the damage I was doing to myself. I am not one to typically participate in forums and the like but this community has already helped me so much that I wish to participate. I am looking forward to this journey with you all.
  2. romlel

    romlel Fapstronaut


    You did the right choice coming here.
    Rebooting is a beginning towards a new way of life and beingness.

    Don't hesitate to ask for advices and remenber to relax : )
  3. Coffee Candy

    Coffee Candy Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    Heyyy welcome to the NoFap forum : ) It's nice to see you here fighting the good fight alongside us!

    Here is just some advice:

    First and foremost please take a look at each section in the forum, there might be something(s) you may find of big help to you. Feel free to post there :+)

    Then secondly I just strongly advise you to be active on your profile(as there quite a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then make daily status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement. They've also got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see. People will find your profile and give you encouragement/support.

    People (are beginning to) love communicating in the profilesection..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive talk. It would be great to have you join in and support others in the threads, profiles, and journal. Make sure and be grateful for the help you received and help after receiving some. Invest in some people's journeys. We could always use your help and in return you shall receive some as well!

    Thirdly, You should also highly consider creating a public journal and write about your days in more depth for us members to follow along your journey and offer support to you by way of posting in your journal.

    Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!
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  4. rafael33

    rafael33 Fapstronaut

    Welcome to the Nofap community.
    The NO PMO journey is not easy but worth the effort.
    The community will support you.

    You do not think? Edging is relapsing. It needs determination to make the journey.

    Now is the time to break the habit. Focus on what you really want: true happiness.
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  5. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use theNoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | ForumRules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the manychallenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
  6. Malachyn

    Malachyn Fapstronaut

    Day 65 of no P. Not 100% hardmode but I'd say 90%. Still no libido and mood is moderate, not great. Feeling strong and like I'm on the right path.
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  7. Malachyn

    Malachyn Fapstronaut

    Aaaannd I relapsed :( .... It's ok though. Resettingthe counter and going to continue to move forward. Not going to let this break me or hold me back... Never again though.
  8. Malachyn

    Malachyn Fapstronaut

    Damnit! I went on the worst binge I've ever been on over the past few days. I really need to stop! I'm never going to be the man I want to if I can't beat this!

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