Hello all, This is the first time I have ever posted on any forum but I believe in nofap and this community. I have been viewing porn since before puberty. I remember being exposed to magazines at a very young age then diving right into digital pornography as soon as computers really started taking off. I have had PIED my entire life which has made me very self conscious and lacking confidence when it comes to sex with another person. As of writing this post, I am 30 years old and single. I haven't necessarily done bad with attracting females in the past but not always the ones that I am the most interested in. I have been told that I am an attractive guy and have had girlfriends in the past, including one very long relationship. That being said, sex and my frequent inability to become erect has been an issue in every single relationship I have been in. I have been rejected by some very wonderful and beautiful people because of it, which has hurt my confidence and self talk. I have been attempting to do nofap for a few years now, with only 1 streak that I did not keep track of proving that I am not broken, but instead have bad mental processes about sex. I have never had an issue with getting fully erect to pornography so I truly believe this is mental, and not a physical fault. I have relapsed during every attempt I have ever made to fix this addiction. Since keeping track via a timer app starting in april of 2019, I have made 42 attempts to break this addiction, with my longest streak being 24 days. I am on day 20 today. I feel strong and determined. I KNOW this will be a lifelong battle for me as it has been an issue my entire life. I have zero confidence to bring a female home right now but I have faith that I will gain that confidence as I travel further along the nofap journey. These 20 days havent been completely 'hard mode'. I have edged a few times and MO'd no P. I have looked at P once or twice without O but for a short time, which I regretted. I do not think I am going to do it again but I know I must be disciplined. I am tired of having an unhealthy and stressful sex life. I am going to change it this time and I am committed to doing so. I appreciate all of the stories people have posted, it has inspired me and helped open up my eyes to the damage I was doing to myself. I am not one to typically participate in forums and the like but this community has already helped me so much that I wish to participate. I am looking forward to this journey with you all.