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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Om Prakash Vedanta, Feb 20, 2023.

Do you think I will make it?

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  1. Feb 20, 2023.

    Hi Everyone, I joined NoFap website on Nov 22, 2022 but have not been successful in my journey so far. I have had definitely more than 20 resets so far. My biggest streak was of 14 days which was in the month of October. After joining NoFap, I haven’t been even able to match it. It sure is frustrating but this is mainly because I feel I am actually thinking much more about sex or masturbation when I am thinking about doing NoFap. (this is perhaps my ego self talking to convince me to leave NoFap) My plan is to therefore track my habits in 21 days to write here and about my progress in a new progress report and otherwise write on what things I am doing and focus on during that time. Sharing positive stories and things which kept my mind on those tasks instead of talking about my past or any habits if I fail during these, it will only be updates about why I failed rather than the content of what I watched or psychology behind that addiction or guilt of something. Basically no spoilers would be my approach and focus will be on positive experience and approaches that work for me. I will from now keep track of my number of resets as I am sick of having so many resets and no improvement.

    Edit: I have forgotten to follow adding this only for 21 days and only added resets now till today March 28, 2023. I will put a new post to have less load to keep track of resets only and I think the rest activities would follow if I keep track of them separately when I watch my resets of PMO.


    ✅ Habit Tracker Progress Report:

    (February 21, 2023 onwards)

    21 Day Habit Score Rules ( Target Score - Do not go after perfection, there is no such thing as perfection as it is defined by our logical limits of rules and definitions, follow on excelling in tasks as they come and do them as fit for your progress; Number 4 and 7 are the priority tasks in this tracker as making the schedule for the work at the night and doing work for 9 hours a day with lunch break is the foremost purpose of this tracker)

    Labels that are used for daily check-ins to calculate scores:

    ✅ - full task done at time with 5 min error - ( + 1.00 )
    ☑️ - 70 percent of any task done but not at time - ( + 0.70 )
    ✔️ - 40 percent of any task done but not at time - ( + 0.40 )

    Negative Labels:

    ⛔️ - task not done - ( - 0.50 )
    ❌ - priority task not done - ( - 14.00 )

    $ - for P ; this includes nude images and deliberately looking at semi nude bikini pics or eyeing at a girl or fantasizing about sexual aspects of a girl for more than consecutive 1 min ( - 7.00 )
    $$ - for P and M - ( - 14.00 )
    $$$ - for PMO - ( - 21.00 )

    ⭐️ - Watching social media, entertainment ( Fb, Insta, Youtube etc for more than 60 mins day ( - 7.00 )

    Alcohol or smoking ( I rarely do them ) - ( - 21.00 )

    Tasks to do for habit formation; Your whole day should start the night before with the preparation done @ 9:30 pm to prepare the list of tasks to do the next day. Split your 24 h into 6 parts of 4 h, where for 2 parts you sleep and 2 parts you work. The other two parts of 4 h are in the morning after waking up and evening before sleep, these parts are your fast-paced chores and interstitial time where things you do actually build your habits and give resilience and structure to your schedule, use them wisely.

    1) Going to bed Schedule ( 10:45 pm to 5:45 am )

    - ( SCORE: out of 20 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :☑️☑️☑️☑️☑️☑️☑️
    Week 2 :☑️☑️☑️☑️☑️☑️
    Week 3 :

    2) Pranayama session = Kapal Bhati, Anulom Vilom, Sudarshan Kriya, and Bhramri. ( @ 5:45 am Daily 20 min ; each exercise for 5 min with some rest time ) - 6 times a week

    - ( SCORE: out of 18 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :✅⛔️⛔️✅⛔️⛔️
    Week 2 :☑️⛔️⛔️⛔️⛔️⛔️
    Week 3 :

    3) Yogasana session = Ustrasana, Malasana, Bhujangasana, Surya Namaskar ( @ 6:15 am; hold for few seconds to 1 min or more for each pose as per your body endures ; with some rest time) - 3 times a week

    - ( SCORE : out of 9 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :✅⛔️⛔️
    Week 2 :☑️⛔️⛔️
    Week 3 :

    4) Work Schedule = Check the list prepared at night and work on them ( 8:30 am to 5:30 pm ; whether I have employed work or not, consistency in going out and working either in a library or any work shall be done to get a job, for productivity an interval timer is used to track work 20 min pomodoro technique with 2 min rest where long breath is taken, after every 10 pomodoros of 22 min, lunch break time would come) - 6 days a week
    ; one day for rest and doing weekly chores.

    - ( SCORE : out of 20 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :❌❌❌✔️✔️✔️
    Week 2 :❌❌❌✔️✔️✔️
    Week 3 :

    5) Built yourself from yogasanas so eventually transitioning to some activity like gym after successfully doing headstand yogasana ; headstand progress do inverted handstand with the wall a bit inclined for 20 seconds.
    - 3 times a week.

    - ( SCORE : out of 9 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :⛔️⛔️⛔️
    Week 2 :⛔️⛔️⛔️
    Week 3 :

    6) Shower, Cooking, Dishes and Eating Schedule ( 6:45 am to 8:15 am or 6:30 pm to 8:30 pm ) - 7 times a week, prepare bulk meals and store.

    - ( SCORE : out of 20 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :✅✅☑️✅⛔️☑️⛔️
    Week 2 :☑️✅✅✅☑️☑️⛔️
    Week 3 :

    7) Prepare list of work things to accomplish the next day, Add Labels to this Schedule and Call home ( @ 9:30 pm; all electronics off and phone away at table by 10:15 pm)

    - ( SCORE : out of 20 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 1 :✅✅✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️
    Week 2 :✔️
    Week 3 :

    8) Give scores on this thread; Every 3rd Sunday @ 9:30 pm as it's good to check habits every 21st day rather than too early.

    - ( SCORE: out of 1 ) All Labels for easy access; ✅ ☑️ ✔️ ⛔️ ❌ $ ⭐️

    Week 3 :

    NOTE : Every Reset will result a high negative score as days are wasted in energy when we reset to be able to follow this schedule.

    No Priority Task, Reset, and Social Media Label Counts :
    Negative Labels for easy access; ❌ $ ⭐️

    No priority task: 12 (❌)

    Resets : 17 resets PMO ( $$$$ )

    Social Media Limit : 5 (⭐️)

    Alcohol or smoke:

    ( TOTAL SCORE: out of 117 )


    Above Habit tracker will be posted every 3rd Sunday 9:30 pm to add scores as labelled for progress report. I do not care about anything else than having to follow and score myself on these tasks. This is my true evaluation and no other tasks would allow me to have a lifestyle change. So, I have to do, be and change myself. Hammer and forge myself to weigh where I stand in my score of willpower when I decide to follow something.

    Purpose of this thread: I am part of the matrix challenge to become neo and this is the thread to keep track of my habits as I navigate myself through the matrix challenge link below. I sincerely apologize in advance to write this post in a self-engulfed tone and concisely aimed to address holistic concerns regarding my habits but this is only done to fight against my own ego self who plays tricks to side-track me to other things. I care about sharing my experience and hence I am on this platform and also taking help as well as helping others in this journey hence I am part of this website and the group challenge.
    Last edited: Mar 28, 2023
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  2. You can bro
    Definitely you can

    But I want you to stick on lesser things.
    Otherwise you will get frustrated doing all these in single day and for consecutive days.

    I am not preventing you to follow this
    But I am telling that
    Whenever you feel frustration due to over discipline.
    Stick to your work only
    Prepare yourself at morning for work and scheduling your next day at night before sleeping.
    And when you feel normal
    Come back on your disciplined lifestyle to follow other things .

    All the best for your journey
    I am always with you
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  3. Yes, got your point. I will do follow that and will not be hard on myself to over discipline. I just want to track my progress, and I have made some changes to lesser the load, I think I had forgotten to write explicitly that all activities are not for everyday.
    Last edited: Feb 20, 2023
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  4. As I said earlier to put a new post to have less load to keep track of resets only and I thought the rest activities would follow if I keep track of them separately when I watch my resets of PMO.

    I have been able to keep track of resets in a calendar template which is freely available in MS PowerPoint. A big mistake is I have not been able to track my social media usage as that is where I spent my most of time and it obviously has triggers that lead me to PMO. I will track social media usage from now on. The below method will be used for the tracker and I have not assigned points yet but that will follow later. The journal would be updated with weekly track reports.
    Schedule_PDF.png Schedule_PDF_1.png
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  5. Update: I have modified tracker rules to give me a green label only when I work 8 hr a day and apply my medicine (it's a topical medicine that needs to be applied and it has a good success rate to fix the problem in 90 days course for 10 percent people and 9 months for most people)

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  6. Schedule_PDF.png Schedule_PDF_3.png
    My weekly progress after updating my rules to include me a green label only when I work 8 hr on something (not even productive but just work) per day, looks like above. I clearly have improved from past two months give I did not PMO in last 4 days but this way clearly shows how behind I actually am. Hoping to improve my work next week. I have been only been able to apply medication one time a day.
  7. I have not been able to have weekly updates here. I have been dealing with extensive procrastination problems which are reflected in my monthly work-related activities.

    compared to my last month. There is a slight improvement in PMO but not what I needed. I am tracking it offline actively and coming here to report only after a month from now on. I don't want this NoFap to be the focus of my goal here. I want to keep track of all my habits minimizing NoFap. So, I would mostly be talking about other things in the journal.
  8. It's midnight here and I cannot focus on getting sleep. I came here to write something as whatever my mind rambles up. I have been so stuck in thinking about every single detail before I can take action and do the work. I am so paranoid about being my absolute perfect self that I barely take action. This is because I have an obsession with putting my perfect stuff in the stuff I put out for the world to see because I do not want to be judged. Now that this is the case, therefore to break it I am gonna put this post anyhow without any reference to break this cycle.
  9. Couldnt sleep the night did not relapse slept around 6 am and woke up at 11 am. Got out to make lunch at 12:30 pm and ate at 2:00 ish pm. Trying to read some things doing nail cutting and had some yogurt snack now.
  10. I went on to watch social media for some time and then did some exercise during the evening and went to Walmart, ate dinner, and watched a show. About to sleep, I have to wake up at 6:30 am tomorrow and start the day with a fresh start. Good night!

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