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Becoming the writer I want to be

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by Anakin66, Feb 24, 2020.

  1. Nan0nymous

    Nan0nymous Fapstronaut

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    Turning 20 today.
    Didn't write anything new unfortunately.
    I'm finally home after 9 months of absence, everything is so colorful and unusual, I feel like I don't belong here, I'm too gray.
    Met up with a girl couple of days ago, I started texting with her on and off about 7 months ago, we went to some bars, walked a bit. Nothing too special, apparently she wasn't looking for a relationship or I guess this is the way modern women tell you if they don't like you. Man, we need more sincere people...
    Anyways, I used to write her long messages about my life in the army and she would always give me one-word replies so I stopped. When we met, she told me that it was really good and I should become a writer. Never showed her any of my poems.
    There's that. This girl wants to meet one more time next week, before I go back and there's also another one that accepted to meet.
    I'll do it but man I need more intimacy, I ain't meeting a girl just to be a friend.
    Am I so bad that I don't even get a kiss?
    I just thought recently - who the fuck wants to meet with a soldier? Like, this guy is here for 10 days and then he's gone and will be back only in 9 months, soldiers have little to no money and look weird.
    Been getting urges when in my room - how many times I relapsed here is complete insanity.
    When I'm done with the army, I plan on moving out of here because addiction here is too strong.

    I know this thread is for writing only but I just feel like only you guys would care what happens in a life of an aspiring writer and a nameless soldier

    I'd write more for you but I have so many meetings planned - I try as much as I can to be busy to not relapse at home.
    Day 19 btw ; )
     
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  2. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Happy birthday! I hope you have a great day.

    I'm hardly a love guru but I would advise taking this time to focus on yourself and your other commitments. Trying to juggle a possible relationship with everything else you are doing seems like too much. Just my two cents.
     
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  3. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I feel like I need longer than a week to rest, so I wont do any writing next week. However, so I'm not totally idle, I will plan out a few chapters.
     
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  4. Happy birthday brother.
    We all crave intimacy. Don't think that there is anything wrong with you there isn't. Just different people at different stages of life.
    Also you need to see the value in yourself life is more than just an orgasm be it with yourself or a women. You've figured out the first part now you need to learn the second.
    Once you gain that realization it will be very powerful.
    Focus on you for now.
    Focus on staying clean and no release that means with a women for the full 90days.
    Unfortunately putting the onus onto release with a women also is a problem as it leads to fantasy. Which in tern makes the journey tougher.
    Keep writing brother get those thoughts and feelingsout and on paper.
    Something I also need to do more.
     
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  5. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    One chapter planned out today. Aiming to get 3 planned out this week, and start writing next week.
     
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  6. Atticus

    Atticus Fapstronaut

    I wrote two poems before going to bed last night. Today I get to the fun part of writing Draft #2 of my WIP. Fun. :emoji_upside_down:
     
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  7. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Work in progress on another poem? Or something else?
     
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  8. Atticus

    Atticus Fapstronaut

    Work in progress, the beast of a first draft that should never hath been. :emoji_sweat:

    I finished half of chapter 1 today - that took me two hours.
     
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  9. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    What is the book about?
     
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    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

  11. Vanquisher12

    Vanquisher12 Fapstronaut

    Another aspiring writer here, I've been working on my first fantasy novel and working on fighting PMO has helped me become more productive on it. Currently I'm on Chapter 18 out of 20, shouldn't be too long now before it's finished
     
  12. 653 words for my newest article. Not a bad start for today
     
  13. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Welcome to the thread! I'd love to hear more about your book!
     
  14. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I'm back from my stint in NoFap jail. I was working while I was gone. The chapters I wanted to plan are done and I'm ready to resume writing properly next week.
     
  15. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Seen as how this is the thread I post on the most, I just wanted to say some stuff.

    I won't bore you all with the specifics (unless any of you ask I guess) but I've been suspended twice now for frankly idiotic reasons, and I'm not sure how many times you can get suspended before you just get banned. If I randomly vanish one day then that will be why. If not for this thread, I would have probably stopped posting months ago so I have to thank everyone involved in making this so fun. Hopefully nothing happens and I'm just being overly dramatic, but just in case I wanted to say that.
     
  16. Specifics please sir. I must knoweth why if thou doth getteth banned one day. Then I shall avenge thee.
     
  17. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    The quick rundown is this:

    I was first warned for a post back in 2019 when I criticised the actress who played Captain Marvel. This was apparently sexism. This later contributed to me being suspended for two days when I got into a heated argument with an imbecile who claimed masturbation was as vital a life function as breathing, eating, and drinking.

    I've had post warnings since then, but usually for going off-topic. This is all fair enough. But a short while ago I made a thread posting memes about the Antichrist. Now for those who are not aware, the joke is based in absurdism. You post nonsense and sound like a crazy person and there are a lot of silly OTT images to go along with it. This thread was taken down, I was suspended for 5 days, and I was accused of being not only trolling, but also of being anti-Catholic and anti-Semitic. Now, to be fair, I can understand the trolling part, even if the intention was just to joke around. But I only ever mentioned Catholicism in an obviously jokey way, and did not mention Jews at all, in any capacity. When I pushed back on this ruling, I got the suspension lowered to 3 days, and the explanation for the "disparaging language" was a load of nonsense. The moderation team acknowledged I was joking, but decided to punish me anyway, and told me I was being hateful to Jews based on their research. Research I proved to be woeful with a ten second Google search of my own. I was also scolded in an insufferably patronising manner about using "4chan humour" when the joke did not come from 4chan. When I replied again, I got no response.

    To cut a long story short, I've been suspended twice now for stuff that is, frankly, bullshit. So many other users have been suspended or outright banned for similar or even less. As I am literally not doing anything worthy of being suspended as opposed to just warned, I fully expect to be banned based on something wholly innocuous sooner rather than later.
     
  18. Nan0nymous

    Nan0nymous Fapstronaut

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    I know it's bs man but just try to stop arguing with random people on this forum because clearly there's no freedom in here.
    Maybe when I'm back from the army, I'll make my own little nofap forum with a focus on freedom (except no porn).
     
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  19. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I agree with you mate, but the point is in the second instance I was not even arguing with anyone, just posting silly memes. It sometimes seems like 10 users could post the same thing and the response to each post would be completely different. With that in mind it seems like the only way to avoid being moderated is to only post in this thread, and that in and of itself would suck because I enjoy discussing things with people. If I were to be banned, I have nowhere else to go.
     

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