Haven't been writing at all for a long time guys, but doing very good in terms of nofap. I've also been doing well in the army: working, running, interacting with good people. Trying to stop smoking somewhat successfully. Smoking definitely feels not as hard on my psyche as pornography. I don't feel so guilty and bad for it. Life's been good even with all of the hardships of army duty. I kinda changed my mind about it all, I just wish I could express it in some form of art, that's all. I understand now guys, it's not about the problems but how you see them, how your percieve them psychologically, I hope that makes sense. Good luck and God bless to all of you guys. I'm not going post anymore of these rantings here cause I understand that they're out of place here, I just like the vibe and energy of this particular thread: just guys trying to do some art to ease their life struggles - that's how I see it anyway. I'll post only if I write something now.