Been addicted to porn for over 10 years ...

Hi guys, I'm glad I could join NoFap Forum so that I could get positive change with me

I'm addicted porn user for 10 years and I remember, right when I was playing internet since at the young age, I use it only for some purposes like entertaintment, which then beginning to worse for browsing internet "curiously". Since then, I start masturbating with myself, feels horny, that I couldn't stop thinking all women at once playing with me.

But that part is what I most regret in my life knowing I will live with a bad habit, although I've been almost killed by some guy which that probably will ended my life there, I still admit that porn addiction, masturbation, and all these kinds are much worse. I wish I didn't know what porn it was, and while I was doing "that" thing where I was going in bed want to sleep, I always ended up masturbating. While in that time, I'm still single, and not yet married. Until now.

I'm always think that because I'm single, I can't fulfill my sexual to my right partner, which is that is healthy sex, rather than playing with myself. I always thought it like that. With my condition through life, I felt what is like depressed, frustrated, and even kill myself. I even felt guilt after masturbating and that is even worse!. And even, I look women in the streets with a different mind. It's so tempting for me that I couldn't manage myself. I'm afraid if I go on like this my "vital part" worsened. And yes, I haven't had sex with anyone.

I've been 5 days on with nofap. I feel slightly different like I could enjoy more on the outside rather than staying home (not to mention #stayathome covid-19 situation). So, I feel you guys who read this thread have more experience, probably you guys maybe go with nofap for 3 months, a year, or even fully recovered, to share experience with me.

But seriously, what is it like for nofap for a long time? Because I was strained not to watch porn for a day or twice lol. And how much time for me to reboot myself and not to think porn as an ultimate primarily activity?


btw, I'm a student engineering in fourth year. Hoping that sooner after finish my college, I begin to marry the right partner, which I could live with a healthy sex.
Thank you guys!