been feeling bad and embarrassed.

Hello man. I spend a lot of time at home too, i think the secret is doing things that entertain you (not that i have a great streak myself yet, but i will). Find a hobby or a project that helps fill the dead space. The more content you feel the easier it will be. More importantly than that though is to realise that it always comes down to your own decision to masturbate, no one is forcing you. When the urges come, all you have to do is say no and theres nothing they can do to you. Good luck.

"If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep walking"

 

Precisely. Find reasons, make reasons, to get out and be around other people. The less time you spend alone, the less opportunity and temptation there is to PMO.

 

Sounds like your addictive mind is working away.
Be proactive with your life, remember you've been a slave to your addict mind and its not going to change overnight.