Been here before

I've been battling this for about 14 years now. I didn't realize it was a problem until about 4 years ago. I have tried to quit before, I don't think I've ever gone longer than a week, which has only happened maybe twice. I usually can't abstain for more than a day or two or three, and whenever I go that long, I re-welcome the sirens of porn with days of binging.

With the new year has brought a desire for me to become more disciplined, productive, and healthy. I have been sticking to my dieting goals, studying hard, and being physically active. Today was bad. I can't do those things and this. I haven't been able to focus, get up, care, nothing. As I wrote in my journal earlier: "I hate it here".

I'm looking to give this a genuine shot. I want this to be the time I hang this up for good. It's not serving me, it doesn't align with my goals, who I envision myself becoming in these next few years does not include my relentless addiction to porn. I will start with 7 days just so I have a streak under my belt, but I want to keep this going all year. I owe it to myself.