Beginning of hell before life

Hello,
I started fapping at age of 13, and it was amazing at that time. In India parents are very conservative and there is no actual sex education in schools either, as far as I remember, I watched my first porn after 5-6 months after I started masturbating, well I knew what porn is but i had no resource till than to watch it. Me and my cousin used to read sex comics before and that was enough to make aroused.
After that for 2-3 years it was all ok and no particularly addictive signs, but after that I went to hostel in class-11th and my habit of PMO started rising, I used to masturbate daily sometimes 2-4 even 5 times a day and I literally wasted 11th and 12th class in masturbation.That was due to easy availability of porn on shops.
I knew that, something is wrong with me and masturbating this much is only making my body worse but even then I thought that masturbation is natural and all I had to do is cut down my frequencey and I did that, now it came to masturbating ones a day or once in every 2-3 days but even then there were times where I was not able to control my urges and masturbated 2- 3 times a day.

The main problem was that,I thought even if I don't masturbate my body will release in form of nightfall,only now I know that NO!!! masturbation is NOT normal and nightfall is due to mental weakness and feeding your subconscious brain with porn junk.
I remember when I was in class 12th I even masturbated in a cyber cafe and was even caught by the owner, that was the height of my addiction.

[cut to present]

Itls been 9 years from when I started masturbating, 4 months ago I heard about the term NoFap for the first time,I did a little research and found the truth and was scared like hell when I first learned about my own self-destructive lifestyle.
From that moment I have been trying to follow nofap, every time I have failed.

for past 4 months my longest streak was 10 days. But, this time I am some how able to retain by streak for 15 days, currently , I am on day 16 and my head is exploding with urges.
Whom ever says that first week is the toughest, clearly didn't had addiction like me.
In my case first 12 days were amazing, I was waking up at 5 am and was able to exercise and do a lot more than my normal self. But, from day 13 I am unable to focus on anything,every day urges are getting stronger, I even watched porn 2 times but everytime saved my self from relapsing, Now I am writting this stupid story hoping to go till 90 days. I don't know if it will help or not. Today I am even experiencing a mild headache.
When I started my attitude was like " fuck PMO, I will never relapse again".
Now for last four days my brain is like - "Alright u have done great now lets award u with some PMO and then u can start again"
But I know, If I relapsed I might binge 3-4 times for whole day. I am really scared to go back to my old self
If anyone have any suggestion pls help!!

 

Ok, I somehow survived day 16 and reached 17th.
Today urges are not that strong and my head is feeling a little better. My eneryg level is also better, was able to wake up early and fresh with just 5 hrs of sleep. Yesterday was definitly the toughest day maybe that's why I desperately found this forum to write.I have decided to write updates daily, I don't know for how long it can help but let's just hope for the best.
I haven't experienced any other benefits other than increased energy levels yet, maybe because it's too early, so for now my small goal is to reach 30 day mark.
This is a good video to start nofap and boost motivation: