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Hello, fapstronauts. I started experiencing PIED in the last couple of months so i decided to search some help and found this amazing community. My post will be divided in four parts to be clear as possible.

Me and The PMO​

I am 20 yo and started masturbating when i was 10 without P. Pornography was introduced in my life when I was 12 if I can remember correctly. At The Beginning It wasn't a compulsion as It is now (started to be a compulsion when I was 15 I think). I always masturbated to release the stress, the anxiety and get some kind of self satisfaction. I used to feel so rejected by others due to my overweight (now I have a perfect BF and I discovered to be very attractive to other girls and boys) but everything changed in 2019 when I got accepted in the University and started dating a girl (that now is my gf). Since I lost weight I have healthy eating habits and exercise regularly, but never left PMO.

My sexual life
As I said before, I was overweight and rejected by everyone. In consequence of that I was virgin until nineteen and met my gf. At the beginning I didn't experience ED, just delayed ejaculation. I thought that it was due to my anxiety towards my sexual performance and never thought of leaving PMO. I am very open to my gf and explained the reason I couldn't orgasm in the sex and she understood it (I always finished masturbating). But as time goes, I started to feel very strange about it. Sex wasn't as scary as before, I improved a lot and it was very good to her (she has orgasms constantly even with my ED due to fingers and oral sex) and I wasn't so anxious towards my performance, so I started to worry because I still not ejaculated yet in penetration. I quit PMO for 4 days once and ejaculated in penetration one week before quarentine. I used to have an active sexual life (we used to have sex 3 times a week) before the quarentine and experienced a little ED just two times but I overcame by breathing techniques.

After de quarentine
When the quarentine came, I got very anxious towards the future, my sexual life was inexistent because I was respecting social distancing and didn't see my girlfriend for 4 months so I got really hard on PMO. I started masturbating 3-4 times a day with pornography. Sometimes I wasn't aroused at all but still masturbate just because it was my only way of satisfaction. When the quarentine was relaxed and I felt comfortable to leave and see my gf, I started experiencing constant PIED. Two times in a row (I never quit PMO in this time) and I was destroyed. I still satisfy her with oral sex, fingers and some penetration before ED. In the third time, I quit porn for 5 days and I could get a acceptable erection and maintain it. After that I thought "ok just quit PMO for one week before sex and I am good". I was completely wrong. I quit porn for a week (one week ago) and had PIED after we started penetration. As always, she had and orgasm by non-penetration and I ejaculated by M (when I masturbate during sex it gets way more time to O than alone with P). When I got home I was so frustrated that I couldn't have had a healthy erection that I M with P and fell asleep. It was the last time since two days. I am now in the third day of no PMO and feeling good and hopeful. I don't feel any hard will to watch porn. I get horny sometimes but with the help of my gf and some kind of self acceptance of my condition I step back and think that I need recovery and PMO is not worthy. She is well aware of my situation. I told her everything and she is very comprehensible and supportive to me. She is helping me a lot. I am very confident that I will overcome this.

Doubts and Help
Well, I hope I was very clear with my history so I would like to end this post asking for some advices. I am thinking of having sex just after a 30 day streak. Should I quit sex for more or less? What signs should I pay attention to know when I am ready? After I get a healthy sexual life, can I masturbate by myself with no P or other artificial images (even my gf nude pics)? If after one month of no PMO I still have PIED, what can I do to not panic?

Thanks to everyone who read this.
Love y'all
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