I have several groups of friends. And in each of them, I somehow end up getting the short end of the stick when it comes to women. Growing up with a lack of confidence and high self-esteem basically made me the bottom of the totem pole of my friends. I would often hear my friends talk about how they plan on having sex with a woman or recall a time where they did smash a woman, and unfortunately I would never have anything to contribute to it, and it made me feel left out. They would always tell me, “just be confident, the worst she could say is no.” But having low confidence, that would really mess with my head. Honestly, the whole reason why I started PMO was because I thought that was as good as it was going to get for me. And considering the fact that I would sometimes be ridiculed by friends and even my own brothers, it really would hurt and it would make me think that there is nothing going for me. I had a girlfriend, but now we’re not together. We were in a serious relationship for four years, and she was the one I lost my virginity to. Now that we’re not together, I feel like I’m back in grade school, moping around thinking that I’m undesirable to any woman ever. I’ve tried to talk to different women, only for nothing to come of it. Things like that take a blow to my self-esteem, and even though I’ve just recently become single, I’m already tired of chasing. Everyone tells me that the best thing for me to do is just work on myself, but I still can’t shake the thought of being with another woman, romantically and sexually. I know this would be dangerous, as with my current mindset, I would be in no position to try and get into another relationship. It honestly feels like I’m still the loser among all my friends. The one who never really gets the girl, but it’s not for a lack of trying. Does anybody else feel this way?