Benefits Incredible

About two weeks' ago I admitted to myself openly and spoke out the words that I had a sexual problem. I was addicted to sex. Not only sex was I addicted to, but also po*nography. I understood why I was reacting in the ways that I was. I have experienced a lot of relationship issues from the past and a lot of pain as a result that over the last few years has made me oversexualised as a means of self-soothing the pain I was feeling.

I made a decision that I was going to get my life back in order. I was not going to let this addiction ruin my life. I decided that I want, eventually, to raise a happy family. at the moment I would not be a good husband to somebody because the way my mind is dependent on sexual stimuli is unhealthy for any partner. In short, I admitted my sickness.

I wanted to share my story over the last two weeks with everybody because I have a few tips that have helped me and where I've been weak too:-

1. Gym / Hard exercise is crucial. Where your heart rate is very high and you're sweating profusely. I've been working out hard over the last six months and I've had people notice a massive change in my look, complimenting me a lot. It's very nice to hear and provides added motivation to keep going. Nothing in life comes for free. If it does seem to, there's a hidden cost. It's the way the world was created.
2. Do not touch your penis except where necessary to pee or shave or whatever. Even then, don't touch the glans.
3. Connect yourself to G-d. Somehow, develop that relationship, start by admitting to the Creator of the world where you've been wrong and how you can change, be humble, seek counsel, try your hardest. See the power that you're able to retain when you are NoFap. I've gone hard mode now even though in the past when I've had streaks I was still doing O. The benefits are being felt:-

- I have more *presence*
- my interactions with girls are more natural, I honestly don't care about them and that makes them wild and wanting me more (it's counterintuitive).
- I feel that the sexual energy within me is being harnessed for what I want to achieve - wealth, wife, kids, happiness, mental tranquility, healing to myself and the world.

I have had struggles even over the last two weeks. There are moments where the hormones in the body are so strong you feel like an out of control lunatic that needs to get his fix of sex in one way or another. It almost feels that you would rob an old lady to get that one second of satisfaction. I can't say that during these moments of weakness I haven't tried to seek out sex from different women. But somehow I have clinged onto the fact that my connection above it's far more important than a transient sexual experience that is going to detract from my goals. My goals are best achieved when I retain my sexual energy and use it only in the context of positivity in a marital home with a wife who loves me, achieving happiness health and success and bringing my children up in a healthy and happy way.

In the heat of the battle it can seem that one is entirely unable to overcome the inklination. However just fighting through long enough just trying to harness that connection and develop that connection with the One Above once you get through the immediate battle-scene you feel incredible and the buzz that you get from the retention of your energies and the exercise and blood flow throughout your life is incredible. A serene sense of achievement and happiness can be felt by simply being in control of your own choices again, that is the definition of manliness and manhood. To be the sexualised sex-craving needy man actually makes you a woman and that's why women aren't attracted to such men, because women should be the one desiring a man to love and treasure her and to be her man. She can only have that if you make yourself a real man through what I've said above.

Happy to advise on anything on the above, contribute away!

 

Exactly. The idea of chivalry (not in an 'i'm giving you flowers / serenading you etc... Because I want to...' Rather than 'i'm giving you flowers / serenading you etc...because I wanna get in your pan*ies' is what women find attractive and manly (think back to those old black and white films... It was playing into a deep secret of the male/female dance.) Indeed, women find the opposite, they're palpably repulsed and turned off, when men try to do the latter and 'need' from them.

Lastly I forgot to say I also ended it with a girl a couple of weeks ago, who, despite me saying repeatedly that this was a FWB situation, had developed serious feelings for me and literally couldn't take it when I told her I'm going to be trying not to do sexual things. She lost it. Absolutely switched!! But this is for the good of me, her and the entire world.

 

I need urgent help.......

I've lost my mind. I'm on my way into town with the specific aim of sexual stuff.... Fuc****

 

Gosh. I know... It's like I'm a different person. The drug of sex/p addiction is yanking me back in. I am like a crack addict right now... Anything to get my fix... it's all I can think about.

I ended up getting off the train at the wrong stop and then decided rather than get the train to the right stop I would run to my destination where I was going to be eating. That was a half an hour run about 4km and after that I felt a little bit better, I ate and was satisfied, but then even still I was seeking an outlet. I sat in a bar had a couple of drinks and watched football. This morning I'm constantly hard I can't do anything. I'm trying desperately to stay strong though I had edged a bit. I'm going spinning soon and gym. But I've contacted loads of girls, joined dating apps, and just desperate for my fix.

 

Almost feels painful!

 

Today involved two gym sessions, swimming. I have edged a bit with pathetic dating apps though I've not pmo'd.

Only through the help of G-d.