Better Days

I truly feel like I am starting to loosen myself from the grips of this vice.

Slowly but surely, I am starting to feel differently. I don't feel the same desires anymore, the hook of being online and not being able to focus on anything but PMO.

I know that this is a continuous process and I have to keep fighting but today I feel good. I took my mom and god-brother shopping and we filled the house with things we need for the next few weeks.

It's going to be much more difficult when I'm home alone and I enter that "depressive" state of not really being awake or sleep.

It is genuinely agonizing to not have any energy for days at a time due to what may be withdrawal. But now I am expecting it and I just have to make it through to the other side.

What are some immediate things I have to look forward to? I am not necessarily doing this for relationship purposes but I am on the path to following my dreams and I know realigning my focus and cutting out this source of energy depletion is a main step in that direction.