It's been almost 2 years, since I came across nofap and barely anything in my life has changed, so I'm gettin kinda desperate these days. I had two 90+ days streaks as you say at the beginning of each year. Did the first one first try. Expected superpower. Didn't get them. Relapsed. A lota problems, that others describe, I didn't have. No PIED, no brainfog, no motivational problems. The main thing, that got me into NoFap, was my girlfriend, because she was sensing, that my attention towards her seemed to be shifting to something else. And she was right. The first 2 years of the relationship, we were very sexually active, including acting out a lot of my weird fetishes and since with porn abstinence nothing seemed to change about them, I guess, they're part of me. This includes sexual activities with men, while I'm a "girl". I told my GF, that I'd need that, but she would not allow it. That's when I turned away from her and engaged in certain activities online and offline. Then she turned away from me more and more and was claiming that most of what I want (sexually), seems to be porn fueled. So this was around 2 years ago and I'm kinda running out of ideas. Just quitting porn doesn't seem to do much. I might need to look into depth what makes me do all these things. Discover the "mechanism". Not sure, whether this would help, right now I feel doomed. I feel a strong need to engage in any sexual online contacts to get some attention. I'm seeing a psychotherapist, but I'm not sure, whether this is of great help either. He was recommended by a lot of others and seems to be the best I can get right now. However I've been through several therapies since I was 21 (I'm 32 now) for various reasons and not sure, whether any of them was of a great help. The last couple of months my streaks lasted about 2-3 weeks. I told my gf about every other relapse. Her reaction doesn't encourage me to continue doing so, sometimes. There's a lot of secrecy going on. Forcing myself to keep a straight face after I relapsed etc ... Not sure, what this is about. Maybe I would just like to talk to someone. Maybe someone with similar problems.