MassNameless
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I'm really unhappy with the life I've been living the past few years. I'm in my mid twenties, living at home, working at a job that I don't like and has nothing to do with what I studied at school. No social life, no dating life, and pretty severe porn addiction. A bit overweight.
I went into 2024 looking to change quite a bit. I'm off to a good start. Lost weight, making moves professionally, socializing again (which was hard!), etc.
By far the biggest change is in my dating life. Somehow, and I really don't know how I pulled this off, but I ended up at a female friend's house who I've known for a long time the other day. We've talked on and off but were always just friends. I put myself out there and she accepted.
Long story short we end up in bed, and she takes off all of her clothes. I have to stop her from going too far because I know I won't be able to get it up. We made out for a long time and nothing happened to me down there. It wouldn't have with anyone, she is gorgeous and I'm really attracted to her.
I sort of panicked when I got home and did some tests to see how bad my ED was and to see if it really is porn that causes it. I think it is. My brain just doesn't associate kissing and having a beautiful girl naked in front of me with sex anymore.
I have not had morning wood in a long time and the only way that I can get hard is with physical stimulation, which is the bad news. The good news is that if I'm watching the right kind of porn and have physical stimulation I really don't have any issues, although I lose it pretty much as soon as I let go.
Tips on what to do here and what to expect, especially in terms of timelines from quitting porn, are appreciated. I really want to make it happen with this girl and I'm going to be so pissed if I can't.
I went into 2024 looking to change quite a bit. I'm off to a good start. Lost weight, making moves professionally, socializing again (which was hard!), etc.
By far the biggest change is in my dating life. Somehow, and I really don't know how I pulled this off, but I ended up at a female friend's house who I've known for a long time the other day. We've talked on and off but were always just friends. I put myself out there and she accepted.
Long story short we end up in bed, and she takes off all of her clothes. I have to stop her from going too far because I know I won't be able to get it up. We made out for a long time and nothing happened to me down there. It wouldn't have with anyone, she is gorgeous and I'm really attracted to her.
I sort of panicked when I got home and did some tests to see how bad my ED was and to see if it really is porn that causes it. I think it is. My brain just doesn't associate kissing and having a beautiful girl naked in front of me with sex anymore.
I have not had morning wood in a long time and the only way that I can get hard is with physical stimulation, which is the bad news. The good news is that if I'm watching the right kind of porn and have physical stimulation I really don't have any issues, although I lose it pretty much as soon as I let go.
Tips on what to do here and what to expect, especially in terms of timelines from quitting porn, are appreciated. I really want to make it happen with this girl and I'm going to be so pissed if I can't.