hi guys , i relapsed after 17 days and i binged in this relapse till my shoulder hurts and as usual i feel that i wanna relapse today because every time i relapse, i find my self want to relapse more but i resist this feeling . and i have mood swing sometimes i accept what i did and other times i can't accept myself , my question is why do i always binge in relapse and i may still relapse for 3 or 6 days ?(it depends on how long the streak was) for example the previous streak was 60 day ,so i binged in relapse for about 5 days now i'm resisting the desire for PMO but i'm afraid that i may lose control as usual , i binged as much as i can yesterday to don't relapse again today (this also as usual ), so i'm afraid to lose control as usual, note :i began the real nofap 4 years ago and i learned a lot about myself especially in the last 2 years but this time i started to don't trust myself because in this time before searching for sexy girls in YouTube i felt if i continue looking for this staff, i'll relapse but i ignored these warnings and continue ,so i ended up with full relapse ,so how can i control my self ? and do you think fasting is a good way to make reboot faster ? note : the covid-19 crisis is in my side unlike a lot of others because i always like to stay ho,e and do tings i like and every long streak has at least 15 or 20 days staying home,so because i like to stay home rather go to the college although i'm studying in home but i like staying home sorry for my poor English and thanks in advance because i may not be able to replay soon.