Binnacle Day 0

[Newlife157]

I am new to this group and I really want to get out of this already!

I am 22 years old and from a time ago I noticed that pornography no longer exited me so much, I do not know at what point of my life I started to have weak erections in my sexual encounters and little by little my self-esteem declined, I went to the urologist recently and I only have varicocele which will be attended in 2 months although that does not influence the erection, being with a real woman no longer caused that excitement and my erection was not complete, I was scared, I went to the urologist they made me analysis of everything and I am healthy except for a varicocele that will be corrected, when I stop watching porn my libido fell, my desire to masturbate went away. Today I did it but I struggled in that my erection was firm as before and my imagination was not enough, my libido is low, I have had insomnia, I still do not have erections in the morning, I do not know how much longer this nightmare will last but I want it to end now! I decided to write here every day until I recover my erection hard and firm my desire for sex and I can enjoy my orgasm. Day 0 Today, decayed and sad but firm for the battle.

 

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Fear not and start again. If this was easy nobody would relapse!

 

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I am new to this group

Hi. Welcome to forum!

Make sure you create a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation.

I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges and triggers. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain after physical injury. Plus it is generally a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body.

Check out this Ted talk on mindfulness practice, it gives a good idea of what's it's about when it comes to philosophy. The mindfulness practice as described by psychologist in a the video can be used by itself but ideally should be used as supplementation to your daily sitting meditation. There is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations to get you started with formal sitting practice.

Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!